argh! New Year's Eve already!......can't believe this year has gone too fast and I haven't even done much so it's not gonna be a memorable year.

I hope next year stores a better future for everyone especially those affected by the Tsunami disaster...please pray for these people who lost their lives by the disaster and millions who have become homeless but be grateful to those who are helping them directly.
If you want help and support the relief work for the Tsunami disaster then please send donations of cash rather than goods to: DEC Tsunami Earthquake appeal - it would mean really alot to these people.
I don't know if anyone feels the same but ever since Sept 11th attacks the world seems to be getting worser and unstable although those attack were not done by natural causes it still damages people still today. Even the innocent people in Iraq and Aghanistan are living in hell and it would take a very long time for their lives to become stable.
If anyone has any family members missing from The Tsunami disaster then please visit: People Match to find them now.

I just hope the new year will help provide answers to those things that affect people badly and hope the year becomes a better turn for the better.....it's not only the people suffering around the world, it's earth's environment and animals too that need to help too.....but you never know with the rate we going for not taking care of world where gonna pay it later. Not that everything is our fault but a little difference makes a big difference to little things in life.


I hope everyone has a good time and really help the world even just a little help will mean alot.......HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Did everyone have a nice Christmas?
I hope you have, I did :).....My cousins from Holland didn't come so that was good but overall a really really fun day.
The presents that I from my parents was the new JLo calendar for 2005!, 2 books - Michael Palin "Himalaya" and H. G. Wells "War Of The Worlds" ( =) I'm finally starting to read books again lol), I also got 2 perfumes Estee Lauder 'Pleasure' and 212 pink the new one and obviously Asian - Japaneses, Chinese and Korean DVDs :p. Oh and a box of chocolate.
From my older aunty/uncle/2 cousins I got another perfume like 212, a Mickey Mouse nightie, box of chocolates and Gameboy Advanced SP (yes really) as I use to love playing old games such as Mario with my cousins so that was great, I also got games with it (which I ordered from Ebay).
From my other aunty I got Nike Trainers which look really cool! and hair products stuff to make my thick frizzy hair more smoother - and they are quite expensive hair products which is why I wish she never got them.
And from my other cousin/mami I got a 3 Diesel purfume set! ..........so yup I did get alot of cool presents the weird thing is nearly every year everyone knows what they got before Xmas day because we always ask each other what we want and I'm the one who always seem to wrap most stuff, mostly wrapping presents that were giving to me! :p. So it's kinda pointless for us wrapping presents and it kinda becomes a waste.

A pretty fun night it was though cos one of my cousins bought 2 karoake games for Playstation 2 - one with alsorts type of music and the other rappin'/freestylin' music!....yeah well as I couldn't sing I only did two songs but I kept laughing throughout especially Lil' Kim song I had to cover cos she was bringing alsorts of rude words and I couldn't say it out cos the whole family will go eh?! lol...I think most of them got too drunk so some were kinda out of tune lol but I didn't drink and don't really wanna, I wanna be like my mum not drinking unlike my dad :p.
But anyways a proper awesome night! loved it!

...Has anyone realised that no one hardly plays board games anymore? I think everyone is using computer games too much and it kinda makes anti-social....I bought an board game last year "Cranium" but no one wanted to play it because they wanted to play video games and I wanted to play the board game at this Xmas but no one wanted too :/ - although the board game seems too hard to understand, at least it makes the whole family interact with each other but my cousins didn't want to :/. But it was still a fun day. Anyways gotta go.

Thanks to Bablu for commenting =).

Hi!!
sorry again for not keeping my promise of blogging I just haven't had the time to do anything because I'm so busy and so much has been going on. One main problem is my Broadband connection there's always seem to be something wrong with it and it kinda drives me nuts whenever I want to go on the internet it stops working...argh!!! That's not the only stressful thing....I have 3 exams in mid-january and still need to get 3 presents for my family members for Xmas day, double argh! lol...but at least it's not worser than last year where me and mum shopped for all presents on Christmas Eve!!...Not really looking forward to the exams though cos I haven't revised this week as I've only got another week off so I gotta revise now otherwise my results would be turned for the worst like as usual :p.

I can't remember exactly what's happened for nearly a month cos there's so much going on but it definitely has been stressful. I still got those idiotic cousins from Holland still here and they probably have to spend Xmas day with us :( - it may seem mean but I ain't gonna look forward to Xmas day with them because they kinda spoil the mood for everyone and I'm only use to spending time at Xmas with my closer knit family...oh well, I'll have to wait and see what they say today if they spending the day with us or not.
My puppy Tyson is so different from my older dog it's so damn hyper! which is what I'm not use to but it's exactly adorable like my older dog...although the weird thing is everytime the puppy needs to do his business he always does it inside the shop rather than outside and dad has to pick it up urgh!...I don't think I can do what dad does lol :p. The only thing that annoys me about the puppy is that it has to bite everything and so far he has made a huge hole in my college bag, hole in my jacket and cardigan and several holes in my skirt argh!! I need alot of new stuff now but skint at the moment because of Xmas shopping - will be going shopping again today later on to buy the last presents but not looking forward it to cos it's gonna be packed and it is Christmas Eve!.

Watched Blade: Trinity at cinema last week starring Wesley Snipes (Blade 1 is one of my favourite films of all time) and it was pretty good although the baddie Drake wasn't really good and it's not really Blade's story it's more of the Nightstalkers story but I still like it and I heard the 4th Blade movie is in production so I can't wait and I hope it would be much more better with more blade.

I can't remember what else to write here but I'll try to remember in my next post and I will try to post this time! and I'll also posts some pics of my puppy :)

Hope you like the new layout for winter! :) it's a free template from Weblog Design although my content is kinda in a mess it's more of a layout just for Xmas so I'll make a brand new layout soon so it looks right with my contents in place :).

Thanks for comments by: Khushee and Bablu .


Anyways MERRY CHRISTMAS I hope you all have an wonderful time on Christmas day and remember it's the thought that's counts and spend the day well with your family without the quarrels, arguments etc :p

Hiya!! sooo sorry for not blogging my site over a month again! it's been so busy that I've never had a chance to really go on the internet properly. Sorry again.
I'm so stressed out because of college workload as well as trying to write my personal statement for the university application that I'm panicking so much about because my tutor wants the draft in next week and get it done in less than 2 weeks...argh!! my statement is not interesting at all so I'm trying to find some examples to help me....it's just been busy busy busy for me :p.

Relatives come and go and now got the cousin plonkers from Holland (again!!) staying at our house for couple of weeks well hopefully less :p...I've had my Maths exams this month and I don't think I done so well. Oh well I'll have to do it again in June. Trouble with the youth as usual outside my parent's shop on Mischevious Night (the day before Bonfire Night) - trying to buy eggs and other vegetables to throw at our shop but my mum didn't serve them. They misbehaved and caused trouble at the Indian takeaway on top of our road and kids turned over the takeaway's car on it's side and put fireworks in it (so stupid). We must have called the police about 6-8 times and it took quite a while and they only caught one of the gang.....I love where I live because I lived here most of my life but I hate it at the same time because of the youth who are in drugs, boozing, smoking and basically trying to make other people's lives hell. They simply have no respect for anyone.

I got a big suprise last week when dad got us a puppy! (well someone gave them free) it's really cute it is exactly like my older dog Rocky an alsation/labaroder but kinda looks a bit like a rottweiler! It's about 7 weeks old now but my dog Rocky is still not use to the puppy cos the puppy is always biting lol - teeth are seriously sharp like needles and he always seem to bite me the most! Although when we got the puppy I was upset because I thought my dog Rocky was gonna be put down but thankgod he wasn't - I'm too attached to him like a man's best friend except it's like a girl's best friend :p. Where calling the puppy Tyson even though it was hard to think of a name. I wanted to give it an Japanese name but other people wouldn't be able to say it lol. I'll try to take some photos of him sometime and post it on here.

It was my birthday on October 26th and I'm 19 now! I kinda feel a bit old at college lol stupid I know. I did have an good time and I got a credit size digital camera from mum and dad although it's hard to use cos it's so didgy. I got money from everyone else. Me and my close family went out on the weekend to Wilmslow Road (basically an road full of Asian restaurants and Asian CD shops) in Manchester to celebrate my birthday. I had an really good time because it's really rare having an get together with my close family (everyone has moved everywhere, we all use to live in a close knit between 2 areas). Got loads of bhangra CDs and I'm actually listening to them for once! Favourite CDs so far is Hunterz, Lil'Sach, Veer Zaara, Raghav and Sophie.

As you can tell the new layout features the awesome film 'Veer Zaara'. We went to watch it on the first day it came out which was last Friday. Seriously awesome movie you have to watch it. Shahrukh Khan, Preity Zinta and Rani Mukerjee are amazing and the music is very beautiful. I'm proud for Yash Chopra who made the film because it's a cross-over story of an Sikh man and an Pakistani girl and there's less politics involved. As they say the young generation of today have more open minds than it was a long time ago and I'm really happy about that. As well as an relationship between indo-pak is beginning to be accepted slowly. So yeah if you haven't seen it go watch it even if ya never seen an Bollywood film go watch it's definitely worthwhile. Even my friend who is white went to watch it with us and she loved it too.

Anyways I'll blog laters (gotta email people and update websites) and I will try to keep the blog up to date now :p.
P.S I know it's late now but HAPPY BELATED DIWALI AND HAPPY BELATED EID MUBARAK.

Thanks to these people for their comments :) : Santosh, Bablu and Khushee.

Oops!! it's been nearly a month I haven't updated! very sorry........so much as been going on...for one thing my internet wasn't working argh!! again and then I had to reboot my comp because my cousin downloaded music or something onto my computer and caused many errors but thankgod I remembered to save my work :p .....I've been really unwell but I'm kinda okay now but still feel weird at times...I'm like in the middle of low self esteem lol at the moment but I'm starting to kinda feel better...college has been really really hectic especially this year so I'm trying to keep my head down in books rather than the internet :p....relatives been coming and going...loads of stuff has happened in the past month so I can't even really remember anything lol! but that's a good thing cos it will keep this blog short and less boring (hopefully).
I need to check my emails and anyone who has emailed me I'll email you back tomorrow or Friday when I have more time.

Oh and had a chance to squeeze in last week to watch "Bride & Prejudice" at cinema from the same director of 'Bend It Like Beckham'....it's not really better than the first one but definitely a fresh idea of mixing Hollywood and Bollywood formula that really works! But I'm not saying this film is bad (some songs were kinda cringeworthy) I actually really really like it just don't expect it to be like the other film and I'm actually happy that Bollywood stars are beginning to be recognised. Aishwarya Rai (my favourite Bolly actress) was amazing in the movie and she look's beautiful as usual. Co stars awesome Martin Henderson ('The Ring') and the Indian guy with the glasses on (I forgot his name..Natin something :p lol he's an British Asian actor) is so hilarious!! as well as the snake dance by one of the sisters lol!! Definitely worth a look.

Thanks to Khushee, Bablu, Ken, Santosh and Hellen for their comments :).

Blog laters...

LATER ON: I heard from a new friend I made in my Business Studies class that she does General Studies and there's only 8 people so I think I should be allowed to do it :). Just have to figure out if my college allows private students because I want to do home learning course but I'll have to remember to see someone tomorrow.
Oh and I totally forgot there were gonna be Japanese exchange students :) so that's really cool although I won't get to know them because I didn't join the exchange thing :/ (I wanted to accomadate a Japanese student at our house unfortuntely when we got that exchange letter the Holland and Canada lot were still living here :/ so it was annoying)....I would love to learn Japanese language although I won't be so good at it because I can't even speak my own language properly either lol. But I might get one of those CD-Rom language beginner packs.
I had Key Skills today it was level 3 higher up which I did start last year but I entered very very late :p so yeah my coursework is here and there and never really knew what to do in my coursework lol but hopefully this year I do well. I think if you do well in Key Skills you can get 20 points added to the UCAs points to enter Uni so I gotta work hard!
Had tutorial looked at universities but the ones that I think are great are either faraway or asking for very high grades :/ but then I prefer to go some where nearby.

Oh and had our Sky Digital + box fitted in today and it's quite cool since I won't miss my favourite programs anymore :) Nothing else really happened much today although I'm knackered for some reason....I got two Japanese movies again but this time I was taking a risk of buying it through Ebay :p and I've finally got my Law book so now I can educate myself in self study but I know I never do self study because I always leave it to last minute....but I just can't change my old habits lol.

THIS MORNING: It's 9.57am while I'm typing this and I've come back early from college because they just told me no one is teaching Religious Studies because there is only 3/4 people who want to do it..so yes again I'm p****d off and know I'm gonna be really behind on everything. I can't believe how messed up my timetable is....But I have 1 hour Law lesson at 1pm then Key Skills for an hour and then Tutorial for an hour. So I'm gonna have to ask my tutor later to see what subjects I CAN do. I could do General Studies but I heard it's really nothing for some degrees in Universities so basically it means it may mean nothing if I want to do a Law degree. So I'm gonna have to a home learning course and I know I said Biology but I've changed my mind I want to do Psychology.
......I'll blog later to see what happens :/ I swear nothing is going right for me this year.

Thanks to Khushee for commenting. :)

SATURDAY: didn't really do much only tried to revive myself from the first week of college :p

SUNDAY: my close cousins came down saturday night but didn't come here they stayed at my other cousin's house cos they were going out. And you know what the boys are like when they go out. They came here on sunday they looked totally p****d lol! they drank too much from what I've heard.
My aunt bought her dream car finally - went to many different showrooms, one showroom finally offered her old car for $5,000! so that was a pretty cool deal since her old car is a little damaged on the front since her accident.
Went to Bombay Stores yesterday in Bradford seriously packed out because it was an sales day or something and then was a wedding next door to the stores so yeah finding the parking space was annoying. Looked at CDs and forgot to buy them doh! lol and my auntie who bought her silver jewellery set from the store a long time ago wanted it fixed because it was faulty....but they said they don't fix or check faults on weekend...my family was kinda outraged and so my family was having an little heated argument (not my theme so I never really get involved in these public arguments lol) with the store helpers lol saying that people can only come when it's convenient for them which is true...it's a bit stupid though to say they can't fix stuff on the weekend because on the weekend that's the time you usually have time to shop or get something fixed...so we kinda stormed out :p well I didn't I was a bit embarrassed lol.
Relatives came when we just came back from Bombay Stores :/ but I stood in our shop with my cousin to help me out (which he didn't as usual!) so I kinda felt knackered afterwards.
In evening my aunt was going back to her location where her job and house she rents is and she forgot to take her work mobile which she left at ours :p so she was worried cos she needed it badly....she first told me to put the mobile in a parcel and deliver it in the morning (everybody should know it's not safe to do that) and then she said might as well meet her halfway on the motorway to give her phone back.

TODAY: Had Business Studies after lunch which I think went quite well...I'm really taking interest in the subject now...I would love to have my own business in the future so I'm glad I chose this subject :)...finished roundabout 4PM and forgot to ask when the Religious Studies timetable is duh! so I dunno what time to go tomorrow so I'm just gonna go in the morning.
Went with dad to go halfway on the motorway to meet my aunty to giver her mobile...I did finally give her mobile back but I hate it when I always get headaches when on the motorway I really don't understand that, it always happens...came back an hour ago from the motorway so I'm feeling quite restless at the moment and I can't be bothered to do my Law homework tomorrow but I'm gonna have to :/

Thanks to Ken and Khushee for commenting :).

Another day at college and it actually was much better. I had Business Studies and thought I was gonna be a loner but a girl sat on the same table as me and realised she use to be in the same year as me in high school but we never talked because we are on different wave lengths but it's still cool to see someone I've seen before :p. Another girl an asian sat next to me she's younger than me well actually all the people in my class are like nearly 2 years younger than me but she seems like a very cool person. So hopefully I make more friends in that class :p. That was the only lesson I had all day so thank god for that.
But anyways went to reception asked again about the Religious Studies timetable and found out I was suppose to have that lesson yesterday :p oops! so yeah I still gotta enrol for it if the teacher accepts me....I'm so glad it's the weekend.

My auntie, my cousin and his mum came down to ours few hours ago - my cousin is kinda hyper for some reason lol. We went to look for a car that my aunt wants I think it was Pegeout (sp?) 607 something like that it's a convertible for the price of £13995 so it ain't that bad but the person who works in the showroom evaluated her Ford Puma car and only said it's worth £1775! so she's kinda p***ed off. But where gonna check out other garages soon anyway so hopefully she will get her car.
I'm trying to be a good person :D by signing up to be a member of 'Friends of The Earth' charity so I'll get my package soon.
But that's it really for my day! but I still wish our summer holiday was extended a bit longer :p so I can be lazy again! lol but I can't slack now. I'm gonna need to get into the routine of being more organised and just basically try my best this year.

Thanks to Hugo for his comment :)

Officially started college today. It was okay but I had A2 (2nd yr) Level Law that was only for an hour when it was suppose to be 2 hours but we have an hour today and an hour on tuesday. My timetable is even more messed up. I wanted to do Business Studies today instead of Law (wanted to be in a same class has my friend) but couldn't change it because there were no spaces left :/...so yeah but it was okay. It's just that I don't know what I want to do as my 3rd option which has to be an AS Level (1st yr) but whatever subject I wanna do is either I can't do because of the requirements or clashes with my other subjects. I can't win :/...the only option I can do is Religious Education as my 3rd subject but I asked reception but they don't know if anyone teaches. Duh! aren't they suppose to know that so yeah I'm kinda peed off at the moment.
Oh and I have to do the full year Maths GCSE again IF I don't pass the re-sits this November. So I'm gonna have to work extra hard now. Tomorrow I start Business Studies at 10am for 2 hours and then after that I don't know because I don't know what my 3rd subject is gonna be :/....this is starting to remind me of my 1st year at college (I'm in 3rd yr now) where I didn't like college because I couldn't do the subjects that I wanted.
But I think there is a problem with further education information for students at schools and colleges. They need to sort it out because they don't tell you everything and whatever I wanted to do it's too late for me to do it.
Hopefully tomorrow someone is teaching Religious Studies then I don't have to worry being short of courses. But I think I'm definitely going to do A Level Biology home course just to get my chances for places in the Universities a bit more better. By end of this month I'm going to try do voluntary work or get a job even though I know I won't :p. I'm too damn lazy!...I'm gonna have to see how tomorrow goes hopefully good and hopefully I won't be a loner even though I know I will.

WARNING LONG POST:
It was the first day back at college today..sorry Induction Day :p. Pretty scary I didn't wanna go back but these were 2nd year or 3rd students so that was fine. The first year students officially start tomorrow and I officially start lessons tomorrow too.
Basically went to college before 9.00am most of us didn't have a clue where we were going because there were so many rooms with funny codes for our tutorial lessons. Eventually found my tutor who is new to college quite a cool teacher. Recognised couple of faces but I don't know them because I never talked to them, actually they never talked to me. So I felt kinda like a loner in the tutorials just like it has been in the last 2 years I've been here.
About 10am all students had to go into the lecture room where we have exams and a woman (from a Uni that I want to go to because it's not faraway from home) talked about Universities and what you should think about. Had a break and got my I.D photo done - I still look really funny on it! look's like as if I'm drunk lol :p. Went in to lecture room again listened to a student who graduated from University (about 40-50 mins from where I live) a year ago and he talked about what type of degrees you should look at, is the course right for you etc.
Had an lunch break came back for the workshop which included about how to apply to the UCAs forms to get into Uni and how to write a personal statement which is the important part to sell yourself to the universities. Finished around about 3pm and I think the whole day has been very useful. I just wish they did this stuff in the first year because it would have been easier what subjects to choose at college that could be a bonus for when you are doing a course at Uni.
The thing is though about the personal statement that I'm worried about when applying for universities because I've never been employed (I've only done work experience at school), haven't done any curriculum activities, workshops, volunteering etc....so my personal statement is gonna be so bland that I will probably never get a place in uni...and my application wouldn't stand out, would it really? so I dunno I think have to signup to some things to make myself sound interesting and done something in my life....I never knew how boring my life looks :p .....so I'm gonna have to join stuff now.

Problems with my subjects and timetables: this morning I asked my tutor could I do ICT couse but he told me to see the person who teachers it. Told me I may not be able to do it because I didn't do ICT as a GCSE at school so yeah that was a major disadvantagement (they never told me at school). I can't do Chemistry because I got a D in GCSE Maths and need to get a C. Since I've got a D in my Maths I may have to do the whole damn year again ugh! :/ to get a damn C. I can't do Psychology again because I need a C in GCSE Maths (why does my life hate me!)...overall I haven't made a good start so my timetable is all over the place. I'm still doing A2 Law and AS Business Studies but I need a 3rd subject and I don't know what to do at all. I'm crap at History, Biology, Physics, French and Geography. So the only subjects that I can do are either Religious Studies, Spanish or General Studies. I thought I'll do General Studies but that doesn't me any justice if I want to do Law as a degree. So I think I might take Religious Studies even though it has nothing to do whatsever in my future career but depends it doesn't clash with my other subjects on the timetable. I would have done Spanish but I can't remember any Spanish language that I learnt at school :p so that's another disadvantage.

I don't know it's going to be a nightmare for me this year, everything is completely not going right and it's kinda depressing me. But I can't depress this year because it's the last important year and I think my future life depends on it.....so anyone who visits here please motivate me to do the work and revise :D please...? even though I should motivate myself I need someone else to as my family can't motivate me to do this and that they just say hope you do well....and I don't have many friends at college this year since most are going to Uni so that won't motivate me.
Just anyone to help me to stay focused :p I want to do even more better this year and improve my chances to get into a University. Thanks

Where getting the new Sky+ Digital installed next Tuesday yay! no I won't miss my favourite programs all the time :p.

Some stupid girls outside our shop again today - there's a pizza place owned by muslims just on our road and these girls are screaming and shouting 'Pakis'. They are so f**king stupid I don't know what their problems are with different ethnicities, it seriously makes me very angry. Okay so I may not be a muslim but Muslims and Indians are Asians so yeah we do have alot in common. But why do these girls thinks it's okay to say 'Pakis' and alsorts of things to Asians. I mean seriously where human beings and even though we may have different culture, values, beliefs etc doesn't mean we are non-human. We are all equal in many different ways. But these girls are so stupid to understand that hopefully as they get older they will realise how wrong it is to bash people just because of their skin colour.

My 'Shaun of The Dead' DVD arrived yesterday and I totally loved it! it's so funny and I think it's the best zombie flick I ever seen besides the Japanese film 'Versus'. If you like zombies, romance with comedy then this film is for you. Even though I haven't seen 'Dawn of The Dead' (original and '04 remake) which this Shaun film makes remarks of it is still funny as hell. The DVD is out in the UK and the special features especially the outtakes and Simon's camera are hilarious!
For those in the US the film will be shown in selected theatres on 24th September so go check it out! - it's not a spoof or a 'Scary Movie' type it's in it's own genre! Visit the official site. Oh and if you see this movie in one of the scenes on the background you can see the 'Battle Royale' girl being shot illustration on the wall, it's so cool!

I keep scratching everywhere I've got loads of bumps now. I think I've been bitten by a couple of insects but then it's my fault for leaving the window open and the light on :p .....College tomorrow! I'm excited!...not. Well it's an Induction day but we start classes properly on Thursday..I just have to remember to tell my new tutor to change one of my subjects to a different one.

New layout up! I hope you like...it features JLo.

It was my cousin's birthday on the 4th September but everyone was busy so we didn't get to say happy birthday to him face to face. He's 24 now...I think :p
Dad won the lottery!! he checked it yesterday and won £450 so that was cool :) although it would have been better if it was a million lol....but hopefully he lets me spend it on a new Sky Digital Plus so then I won't have to worry about missing my programmes.
See if he can spend it on a new DVD player that is multi-regional so I can buy DVDs from different countries and let them work - we still got the old DVD player (got 3 - 2 a gift and 1 we bought ourselves) that only plays DVDs made in the UK that are Region 2 but also plays Region 0 where some DVDs from other countries can be played onto our DVD....it explains it here :p if I sound mumbo jumbo. The DVD player I want costs nearly £100 so let's hope so.....And the rest of dad's money buy on DVDs and CDs lol.....you might think I'm selfish here but I can pay most back to the dad because of the spare change (I haven't got a job yet well never had one) I've been collecting over the months is nearly £300 and I'm trying to save it for a new car....that's when we get our new car which is in 100 years!....

Over the weekend we had loads of idiots around our area drinking, smoking, drugs and basically making our street look like a garbage....this is the one thing that I hate about my parents owning a shop because you get groups of idiots outside and there is always trouble and my parents get the abuse for nothing just because my parents say keep away from the street because we don't want no trouble....it's really annoying. The one thing I don't understand is why when the teenagers are in a group they act like a bunch of s**theads but when they are by themselves they behave alright and don't act hard. That just doesn't make sense.

Great I'm going to college this wednesday for induction and then start on thursday :/ not looking forward to it for some reason. Probably because I'm gonna be a loner this year. We will see.

Thanks to Ken for the comment.
Updated the whole left hand side of this page and added a new section in the 'Girl' section.

I think I'm gonna put a new layout up tomorrow or Sunday because I'm getting a bit bored with this one now. I'm also starting college next Wednesday so I dunno if I'll have the time to blog all the time.

Can you believe about the 3 day School siege in Russia apparently linked to Chechen separatists?.....I mean why do they do it? what do they get out of it? these Chechen separatists must think that holding innocent children, teachers etc as hostages would get them victory or something....it's so wrong I just don't understand what they think they will get out of it and killing people who haven't even done anything wrong or bad...that is so wrong.

Nothing much has been going on in the last couple of days I've just been lazy as usual....watched another Japanese film last night :p called 'Audition' - it's a very awesome movie, disturbing and graphical in two scenes (I was gobsmacked and amazed) but a really good movie. A very well acted movie, check out the movie summary here. I'm amazed how I now like horrror movies alot and watching it alone when couple of years ago I use to be so scared (I use to be really faint-hearted - I'm still am but now with movies :p) and never watched horror movies. Now look at me lol.
I'm gonna do some work in my distance learning course if I can be arsed :p lol.

It was Rakhi yesterday so I went to one of my cousins houses to tie the lakrakhi (sp?) on his wrist. I couldn't go to the other two cousins cos they live a bit far away. If you wondering what Rakhi is don't ask me because I'm not good at explaining things lol but someone else might explain it to you.
Did anyone watched this year's MTV Video Music Awards 2004? I thought it was great I think the best year in a long time for the VMAs. And yay! Jennifer Lopez presented Usher :). Though it seemed massive this year which made the all set and audience better there weren't much celebrities you could see around there.

Only 1 week left till college starts all over again :( I'm seriously not looking forward to at all. I hope my new tutor will let me change one of my subjects if the spaces are not all taken for ICT. I hope not anyway :/.
I opened up a new fanlisting for Antonia Bandera's character in 'The Mask of Zorro' click here. I updated some pages on 'Girl' section' as well as adding 2 links in 'bloggers I admire' and 'dailies' on the right hand side.

Thanks to the commenters: Bablu, Ken and Hugo. M y replies in comment box

Okay we were suppose to go the party after 8pm when we closed our shop but because our people carrier car was in garage for a new engine and they said it would take half an hour to bring the car back to our house....we were waiting and waiting since 8pm. I told mum we might as well not go but dad says no (argh I can't always get my own way :p)....yeah well they came 9.30pm!!....so yeah that was late but we still went.
The party finished at 10.45pm lol so we didn't really stay long.The party was alright but my close family seemed really bored so my 3 cousins (all male) went out clubbing!!! can you believe that?! I think they came back at 1am-ish, so it must have been a rush today for them because they all had to set off in the coach (me and dad didn't go to wedding - have to take care of shop and well I didn't wanna go) at 6.30am so they must still be half-asleep lol....if ya wondering why they are going in a coach, they are going to the bride's location where she lives and that's where they get married and then couple of days later the bride will go with her husband back to his location and live there.
And this is what I'm scared of because I don't wanna live away from mum and dad lol :p ....I think it's because I don't interact with others as much as I do with my mum and dad and since I'm an only child I like living with my parents.

Going to a party tonight because the groom is getting married tomorrow. I don't feel like going but I have to, I don't even know them properly. It's my mum's cousin's son who is getting married. Yup I'm a kinda selfish person not wanting to go but I don't even really talk to my relatives much I'm too shy with them as well! but then I'm glad I'm going to mum's side family because they seem more nicer unlike dad's side family who are selfish (but I don't mean all of them, dad's brother and his unit are really really cool - I get along really fine with them cousins) and no matter what they are always asking money from us. Just because we own an off-license shop they think we have millions they don't realise that we haven't got lot of money. That's what really gets me mad seriously. And another thing they never say thankyou or give money back! it's stupid. Need to find a suit to wear now probably trouser (Indian clothes) suit - I've got loads but never wear!

Watched 'Welcome To The Jungle' aka 'The Rundown' (USA title) on DVD last night starring The Rock and Seann William Scott and it's really funny actually but seems quite short though. Also watched the 'Battle Royale II', it's really good but not better than the first one - first one is a classic!

Been trying to shorten my magazine piles in the storage box and it's only half the size now :). Except there's about 3 boxes that need to be taken downstairs but goddamn it's heavy with those magazines! lol even dad can't pick them up :p. So my only solution is to let the boxes slide down the stairs as long as the boxes don't open up :p.........I've even starting revising today for January!! lol you might be thinking what?! but I'm trying to keep all the subjects info in my head so I can succeed much better results than this year - I think I did quite badly this year because of those Plonkers who were still here when I was revising and when I was doing exams so I really couldn't concentrate much. I just hope mum and dad don't let anyone stay in our house for long time because it stresses me out big time and I don't get any privacy :/

Thanks! to Hugo for commenting :).

I'm a bit p***ed off today, actually more than that....I got my GCSE Maths result today and got a D :(. I need to get a C but looks like I have to do another year of Maths...Oh God. I thought I did really well this year but I still get an D. I hope they let me just do the re-sits and not the whole year again it's too much. I bet my Maths tutor is really disappointed but at least I didn't get an E (2003, at school I got an D) like I got last year...so yeah I don't think I'll be able to do A Level Chemistry since you need C in Maths at our college but then it depends if they allow me since it's gonna be my last year at college.
I ordered some print copies of my exam papers that costed £36?!....a bit of a rip-off, if I ordered all of my papers it would cost well over £100. I had to ask the reception could I change my chosen subject Chemistry to A level ICT but said I have to come on the 8th September and that's when we start college. But I'm really worried though because the school leavers enrol next Thursday to college and ICT subject is quite popular and I don't think there will be any room left for me :/.
So I'm kinda in a rut here. But I'm gonna try to ask the Career Advisors tomorrow if I could enrol now because I fear I won't be able to do the subject and won't able to get to University next year. Everything is going wrong for me this week. Oh well it's life. Congratulations to people who passed their GCSE results today :).
Anyone got the teen USA singer 'Jojo's' album? it's an really awesome album if you like r'n'b...a very cool album, I've become an huge fan despite Jojo only being 13.

Thanks to: Bia, Hugo and Khushee for commenting :) My replies are in the comments and thanks for liking the layout :) a bit boring but oh well. Added a link in the 'bloggers I admire'.

I think I'm gonna start on my 'Business Management Course' today...I bought this course like since January 2004! lol and I still haven't started it. But it's a course you can do on your pace and can do either in 6 months or 3 years...if you wondering how can that happen I'm doing the distance learning course at home :). Maybe I should do an A level Chemistry home learning course and use the laboratory at college then probably I could pass it :) but maybe in future I'll probably do that.

Now I cut my hand with a knife this morning....I must be prone to accidents this week lol I better be more careful.
Hope you like the new layout :). I finally made a layout that's in a non-celebrity for once. It's not much but I like a bit of a simple style.

Oh and the new car that we order Citroen C5 from the showroom told us they have stopped making these cars :/ argh!...now why is it that everything good happens to us goes bad.
Now we are looking for another new car and don't know what to get. Mum and dad want to get either a Mercedes or BMW but I don't for some reason I rather have an Audi make but they are really expensive.
Where never gonna get a new car.

Had my eye test couple of hours ago and I didn't have the same man before thank god - he's a very miserable guy. I had a woman who was a bit hyper lol :p ....I was suprised I could read really small letters, you know that thing where you have to read the letters off by looking at the mirror?
I forgot what it's called. Anyways she sas my eyes excellent so I'm glad I don't have to wear glasses, because I tried some glasses on just to see what it would be like and I look so funny lol, all frames seem to be too big for my eyes. Unfortuntely for my mum she had to get new reading glasses because her eye sight has changed a bit.

Also bought some new CDs: Ma$e- 'Welcome Back', Shyne- 'Godfather Buried Alive' and Rasmus- 'Dead Letters'. Also bought the DVD I wanted 'Battle Royale II - Requim' the followup to Japanese 'Battle Royale' film. I was suprised to see Jeevan there (use to be in the same tutor for 5 years at High School), he's changed alot. Why do I feel like as if I'm the only one who has never changed after leaving school lol :p. It's really weird to see ya old classmates because they've changed alot. But usually in a good way.

Thanks to Khushee for posting in my last two posts. I decided to put all the comments that I return back in the comment box...because my posts seem to be getting longer and longer! :p I've updated 'playlist' and 'movies' on the left

My finger still hurts from yesterday when I burnt my finger on the iron (I didn't look duh! lol :p). At least it shows how much housework I ever do! a very minimum work, I really do need to help out more just too damn lazy.
It reminded the first time I burnt both of my hands when we use to live at our grandma's old (Bibi) house - my aunt melted ice cream in her bowl (I was really young then) and I wanted to do the same except I put the ice cream in a steel bowl! And I burnt my hands didn't I...stupid!....there were blisters everywhere I never been in so much agonising pain before. But I always remember now not to be stupid when melting ice cream :p.

Oh and I added the 'GIRL' section finally! yay I got it done!...in the contents section on the left hand side, the other sections will be following up soon. Oh and 'my profile' link works finally.

I don't know what was going in my head yesterday when I enrolled for College because I've done one huge mistake I think. I thought thoroughly and hard and now I don't want to do Chemistry because it looks and seems so hard. I probably might do Psychology or Religious Studies if they let me change my subject...I hope so. I looked in our local paper and it showed people who passed their A levels. It showed mine passing one but everyone else seem to have passed more than 1 subject :/.
I don't wanna do Chemistry now because not many people pass it so there's no point for me doing if I wanna go to Uni with 3 A Levels. Besides I always wanted to do Psychology in my 1st year but wasn't allowed because I didn't get a C in GCSE Maths, so hopefully next week when I get my Maths result that I've passed and can do that subject.
But the problem is now is when the people from the last year of high school are going to be enrolling next Wednesday or Thursday for college and Psychology is a very popular subject and so I may not be able to do it :/.....I'm so stupid I should have thought about this properly, I should have known that I will never pass Chemistry no matter what.......feel really stupid now. Hopefully they will let me come on Monday and talk about it, I'm so worried now.

Comments by: Santosh (no problem and thanks for your comment, I do understand what you are saying here and you are right that grades are no indication of brain strength - I was just feeling upset though that I didn't do well as I hope to) and Sindhu (thanks for liking my site, I think Brandy is amazing I love her music and no problem) for commenting :).

updated 'dailies' links, added a bunch of 'resources' and 'for fun' links on the right hand side and I've also added 'my profile' link on the left hand side above the content section - but I do not know if it works, can someone comment to tell me if they can see my public profile or not, thanks.

I got my results yesterday and they are just ok except one is bad. For my full A Level (2 years) Sociology I got an D grade I was couple marks off to getting an C which is vital for my future. In AS (1st year) Law I got an E again couple of marks off to getting an D. And for my AS Level (1st year) Government & Politics I got an U which means I failed that subject :/. How bad is that?!...So yeah I was upset yesterday because of my crap results. So I'll be staying another year at College and will be having a new tutor so hopefully I can do re-sits 1 Sociology paper, 2 Law papers and 2 Government & Politics paper in January.

Had to go to college again today (didn't go sleep properly last night because of my grades) and I was kinda knackered. I enrolled for A2 Law (2nd year of Law), Business Studies and Chemistry - I don't how the hell I'm gonna do chemistry because I'm not that really brainy at it but it's good for employment and seems interesting but I'm gonna need a lot of help on this subject. However for me to do Chemistry I need a damn C in my GCSE Maths and I don't get my results for my maths till next Thursay. So hopefully I passed otherwise there's no other good AS level subjects to do. My timetable is terrible but I think I'm just saying that because I don't get no day off this time :p. It's not only that though for one my Law lesson it will be only an hour long on Tuesday and the rest of the day I don't have anything to do which I think is stupid timing. I wished they put the Law lesson on Thursday on a day that I got to college for a full day, then I could have the Tuesday off....Oh well.
But I think the really worst thing about going to College for another year is that there will be new people and nearly all of my friends are going to Universities this September and I'm still left behind. The thing is I find it hard to make new friends because I'm very shy and very nervous and I'm worried I won't make any friends, I'll be like an loner....but then that don't make any differences because I'm already loner. :p Oh another problem if I do the re-sits then i'll have to do the 5 papers in January with another 3 exams!!! (3 more exams because the 1st paper from each subject I'm doing this September will be in January also). I'm kinda panicking I won't do so well as I want to, theres too many brainy people in College getting As to Cs....so unfair...I wish I was brainy but I'm so crap.

Thanks to Khushee for her comment - thanks I tried not to stress out yesterday but I think my results were just ok :p. No problem your blog is very cool and glad you like my site :).

I'm so stressed out!! I feel like pulling my hair out today. Most people won't think it's end of the world but I'm stressed out about tomorrow. Tomorrow I get my exam results back!....oh God!.....and I'm so sure I have failed that I might not be able to do the subjects I would like to do when I got to University in 2005. :/. I really am that worried, that's all I been thinking about. Everyone pray for me that I get good results tomorrow lol.
If I do get bad results I might have to take re-sits but I don' want to keep re-siting all time just in case in the future any University might think I only succeed when I do my exams the 2nd time round. But I'm just hoping, I'm crossing my fingers.
I don't think I will be able to go to sleep tonight, I'll be still thinking and thinking...feels like end of the world for me. I'll post tomorrow what grades I got but I might be too ashamed if I haven't done so and so....not feeling so good.
You know, I forgot it was India's Independence Day last Sunday? oops I totally forgot so did my parents...we don't forget about our pride but not much Indians these days in the UK don't talk about Independence Day as much as they did 20 years ago, actually my theory (I could be wrong) is that I think Asians are becoming less traditional then they were 10 years ago because everything is changing now, we kinda accepting things that we didn't before. One particular noticeable thing about me getting less traditional is that I only can speak a bit a Hindi...now how bad is that?...Okay it might be quite bad that I'm losing our mother tongue but I'm kinda glad our religion in the UK is less stricter then it was before and kinda broadening out of the horizons.

Thanks to Aedes (cool name!) for your comment - Sorry about you being unlucky about deleting your programs and stuff that does suck big time...at least I know how much computers can suck when it's get's f**ked up....lol it did feel quite funny when I didn't have no blank cds but I really do hate it when that happens. Thanks again for you comment.

I know I said I was going to put up a new layout with my next post but I didn't have time, I'll try to make it Friday afternoon after I enrol at College again - but my layout ain't gonna be that good I'm a below average at making layouts :p. Also updated 'dailies' and 'bloggers I admire' links. And sorry that my blogs are too long I'll try to make it less next time.

GOOD NEWS: The Holland lot have finally left our home for good and gone back to Holland! Yay!!!!!! lol....they went yesterday morning but I was still sleep though so I didn't really didn't say bye to them. But it didn't matter, even they were glad they were gone. Finally got some freedom :). So yup I'm in a happy mood for once. I also got my Japanese DVDs order from Amazon.co.uk because I'm beginning to become a big fan of Japanese movies :). Watched 'The Eye' last night it did have english subtitles. It is a very awesome movie it's scary and suspensable but I can't help thinking that Hollywood may probably do remake of this film since their are Hollywood films remaking Japanese horror this year. But if you wanna rent a Japanese film rent this one. Other DVD titles I got are 'Versus' (already seen on TV but I thought it was a very cool movie), 'Battle Royale', 'Shiri' and 'Audition'. I'm gonna try to get 'Ringu' (seen it on TV I thought it was good as well as American 'The Ring'), 'Dark Water' (seen it on TV very good and they are doing an Hollywood remake as well.I also got some new CDs the 'Rush Hour' - dance music quite good, 'Nina Sky' album quite good like Beyonce's music style and Anatascia - 'Sick & Tired' still like the song.
BAD NEWS: I bought 'Select: AntiVirus' it's not bad it's actually the best anti-virus programme I have ever came across and it's cheap only £6.99 (sounds like I'm advertising stuff rather than blogging lol :p sorry) so it's highly recommended to buy. The bad thing is which was my fault by the way was that I did not read the instructions of the program saying that you should remove any other current anti-virus programmes that you use on the computer. Well I forgot to unistall my old program and so when I installed the new program my comp frozed everytime I kept starting it up yesterday and nearly lost most of the files...argh!!!!!!!!!!!....but after about 15 times of restarting the comp I quickly removed the new anti-virus program and my PC finally worked again! :). But I didn't have an unistaller for my old 'Norton Anti-Virus' therefore I had to set-up the whole computer again - meaning I had to recover my comp to get it back to how it was when I first bought the comp. So yes I was in a pretty bad mood it took nearly 2 hours to do! obviously I did save all my files on to CD first....but that was another problem...goddamn it!....I didn't have any blank CDs left at all and had to go to Staples store when it was totally packed with massive queues (somehow packed on a Monday?)...I was so damn frustrated....my computer is all up but I now have to install so many programs on my comp all over again!....that you just hate it when your comp does that but it actually shows you that how much you love your comp and miss it lol :p like me...I know sad but it's very much true....another bad news which I keep repeating (sorry ;p) I'm getting my exams results this thursday and I know I have done bad and I have to enrol on friday and I don't know what subjects to do.

Thankyou so much to people who commented: Serena (lol I agree with you too probably we girls can't function without 'me' days lol - hope ya life get's better than mine :) and Beatriz (Thanks for liking my blog, yup it is too bad I can't understand your site but it's still very cool :)...I thought no one actually visited my blog lol :p.

Updated 'right now', 'songs', 'album' playlist, 'dvd/cinema' movies and probably putting up a new layout on next post. Oh cool is the Blog navbar on top of my page? it's much more easier now to blog.

Those Plonkers are so damn useless! (referring to my cousin and his wife from Holland)...they get me so angry right, they are going out everyday trying to ignore us like where nothing when we let them stay in our home for free and feeding them for free...for f**k's sake!!...I seriously do hate them more than anything, I never thought how we think we know what people are like and how they are but once you get to know them more or letting them stay your house for over a year they show their true colours that they never show to someone else nor their parents to make themselves look innocent.........
.............argh! my life is crap as hell! and I'm a total bore no wonder I only have few friends. I wish I had more confidence and looked more prettier then maybe people will probably like me more...ugh....sorry I'm having one of those "me sorry days" but I think I have that nearly everyday....

updated 'right now' and added 2 new 'link me' buttons

Just a little note that I've added "Right Now" as well as my sites on the left hand side and some new links on the right hand side of this page :) ......pretty much nothing going on today, alot of people I've seen in shop are superficial as you know it's the Friday 13th Today :p but I keep thinking of the movie series with Jamie Lee Curtis in "Fiday 13th" series lol :p

The new car we ordered!!!!....yes a new car finally not the usual 2nd hand car :p
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The car I wanted my parents to buy but didn't =( - my dream car now actually
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Okay well the Plonker my cousin from Holland came back to UK yesterday on the bus about 4ish but I didn't say hello to him until 9pmish :p because I didn't wanna see him...really they are all using us and don't even care. But anyways his wife's visa came and so hopeully tomorrow or saturday they will go to Holland for good, hopefully. I miss my freedom so much when it was just mum, dad and I in our house until it got invaded my two Plonker cousin's family unit from Holland and one's who stayed in Canada for a while. I really can't wait this weekend ;)

Went to look for a new car with dad and his friend after lunch, but I didn't want to go at first because I know dad takes forever and agrees with what other people think of the car, rather than what he likes. We first went to see a Vauxhall car but I didn't what type it is but all I knew it was small, and I don't like small cars because of the small space in the back seats and I always feel I'm gonna suffocate. Like my younger auntie has a sporty lookalike Ford Puma car but I hate sitting in the back, I totally have a bad phobia but I'm usually okay on the front. Anyways the car we were looking at I didn't like much but we asked how much they think our car we got at the moment would cost for part exchange. Well the dealer who was serving us said "don't take it the wrong way but our car company would say your people carrier was worthless". My dad and friend got mad and just walked off. Okay I can understand how my dad and his friend felt but I felt sorry for the young looking dealer because he was only doing his job so I said sorry about dad's behaviour...dads uh? what are they like...

The thing was our car we currently got is an import from Japan and therefore our car would be worthless for part exchange or for auction in the UK....but I still love our people carrier it's a Toyota Esteema (94' make) and apparentley one of the very few cars seen in Britain. But I have to say from all cars we had (all second hand cars) which believe me were very many I would say the Toyota car is my favourite one. We even hand a 2nd BMW but frankly I didn't like it but everyone else did. My dream car would be an Audi or a Vauxhall car and cars that are made by larger families like a people carrier or a state car I like alot, although theres only me, mum and dad :p.

We went back to our shop and I told mum to come with us to another car showroom but she didn't wanna go because she didn't wanna leave those cousins in our shop they are so unreliable - they also just came back from somewhere and went upstairs when we came back to shop at the same time and so frankly yes they seemed p***ed off but that made me happy :p yes evil I know. We went to see Citroen cars as well as Vauxhall cars. My dad and his friend liked the Citroen C5 that looks really really long, I lied the Citroen Picasso car as like before they are big and spacious inside and my mum liked the new Vauxhall 7 seater car which I also liked. We had a test drive in the Citroen C5 and my dad liked driving but his friend loved driving it and loved the car but I thought it was alright. Anyways we told the Citroen car dealer where gonna check the next door neighbour Vauxhall showroom. Mum really loved the state car. We had a test drive in that state car as well as Citroen they had to fill them up with Petrol a little. But when the dealer was putting petrol for the Vauxhall we were driving dad was having 2nd thoughts whether we should go further with test drive in the car because he thought the car was okay but didn't have enough power which was true.

...So we went back to the Citroen dealer and I couldn't believe it that dad really wants to buy a new car!!! - I should throw a damn huge party! lol because he always said everytime we had a different car then where gonna get a new car but we always get a 2nd hand car. I didn't believe him this time but he was serious and so was mum :) ......But anways mum and dad said it was up to me which car I liked from the Citroen C5, Vauxhall or possiblly Citroen Picasso. My heart was definitely on Citroen Picasso but my dad's friend kept saying that the C5 is which more better than Picasso, he said that "don't you want to look posh?"...frankly no I don't I don't associate a person's class with a car...along as the car is comfortable, flexible, easy to drive and spacious then that's the car that I will go for. But anyways they liked the C5 and I thought it was alright but I told my parents it's up to them it's not like I'm gonna drive it and if they want to look posh then they should buy C5 if they want but seriously I was hoping they wouldn't.
.................but then i said yeah then letes get the C5 car then just to make mum and dad happy as well as my dad's friend - he loved the car therefore persuaded us to buy the car but my heart was not set on it, oh well....we've ordered the new Citroen C5 car now hopefully get it by beginning of September....I might not sound excited because I wanted them to but the Citroen Picasso but I'm still happy that we finally got a new car not a second hand car like as usual :p

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Only 3 weeks left till college starts all over again....argh! my life is over....I can't believe the summer holidays are going so quickly, I mean I've only been lazy most of the time but then relatives kept coming 24/7, I seriously waste all my free time. Got lots to do in 3 weeks then :p.
I'm getting my results next thursday...arghhhh!!!! help me!! I don't think I've done well this year although I think I may did better than last year...I feel like a failure because I always set myself targets but I never get around to do it because I think I have time but then I waste it over friggin' nothing :/....I so wish I was well organised in my life. Another problem is that I dunno what I really wanna do at Uni in the future. Well I mean I do mostly Law degree but it will depend on my results and whether Uni will accept me. I don't think any Uni's will accept me in the future when I finish College :/.

Watch "The Abyss" on TV last night, I still love the movie. To tell you the truth I haven't watched much TV for nearly over a year because of those cousins from Holland and Canada living in our house. At least we got one family unit gone, still waiting for the Holland lot to go this weekend hopefully.
Hopefully going to see "The Village" this weekend. I know it's been getting mixed views from the US but that's because the trailers are kinda misleading and people thinking it will be horror which it ain't, it is more of romance, thriller and psychological horror. But still gonna see it I'm a huge fan of M Night Shyamalan's work as well as having the amazing actor Joaquin Phoenix :p. I'm gonna start on my "Business Management" distance learning course which I got since Feburary, oops!

Oh and visit JibJab Times - a very cool site and blog, watch the animation it's so damn funny! :P ....Oh and I joined some more web directories look on right hand side of page where it says "Listed at".

Went to see I, Robot yesterday and is very good, recommended to watch it. Not just because of the awesome Will Smith the story is excellent, the robots are wow and the whole computer CGI is just amazing and doesn't look so fake like other type of movies. Even though I never read the book which maybe why I like the movie so much but people have to realise you can't always copy every single detail from a book into an movie.

My cousin's dad from Holland finally went back home on Tuesday :) but hopefully my cousin's wife will get her visa this weekend and then she can finally move out our house for good! well that's hoping.
My week has been kinda boring I haven't actually been doing much except going on the internet and feeling really lonely. I guess it's my fault for feeling like because I don't interact as much as I should with my friends and other people but it's hard for me since I'm very shy and nervous which is why I think people think I'm stand offish.

What's been getting hot in my collar is Asians who have views against an Asian person going out with another race person. What I'm trying to say some of my family members were saying how can an Asian person can go out with another colour person such as a White person, when they should marry an Asian person....argh!! I know that is traditional view but the thing that gets me mad is that males in the Asian families can get married to an White girl but when it's an Asian girl with an White boy then no way....which I think is completely wrong, I mean why do boys get away with so many things but girls can't and not having much freedom as they should. Okay I know alot of Asians won't agree with me thinking it's alright for an Asian girl to go out with a White person but think it in this way......
1. if Asians think it's wrong for people to be racist towards them because of their skin colour, culture, beliefs etc (I agree with this 100%), then why do Asian thinks it's wrong for an Asian girl to go with a White boy? doesn't that make Asian racists as well towards others races?.....It really doesn't make sense I mean okay we may not be same races, have different beliefs and different cultures but where all same human beings, where all alike in so many ways, I mean if you love someone then why does colour of your skin matter? .....unless some people are scared of what other people might think but they shouldn't be ashamed, you know?

This debate can go on forever and many people can agree or disagree with me but this is what I believe in and I believe if doesn't matter if two people aren't the same colour, if they do share love and care and that's the only things that really matters....

Updated the playlist, top 5 movies to rent and see in cinema as well as the August calendar on the left hand side of this blog page.

Okay well Billu's dad did come on Wednesday, my dad had to pick him up as well as Hardeep in Billu's banger lookalike car, Billu's wife also went with my dad to airport. Anyways they came Hardeep was no where to be seen thankgod - dad took him straight to his house. Once they came here I knew it was going to be something predictable. Yup using the house phone so much that I couldn't go online. In fact in total from my cousin's dad to my cousin's wife they used the friggin' house phone about 15 times! in just 5 hours!! God it frustrated me so badly because I wanted to use the internet on that day as well. Imagine how long our bill will be because every phone call they made were at least 10 minutes or more.

Dad had to be an taxi driver to these two and took them to Liverpool in the evening so they could get Billu's wife visa card stamped. Unfortunately it was closed duh! So dad had to stay with them at some relatives house because basically he was only suppose to drop them off at Liverpool so they can stay at relatives and him come back home well that didn't happen. But he did came back the next day looking seriously moody. He hates how they are treating us but didn't say anything to them but easy for my dad to criticise my mum's side family because we are so close....parents what are they like.

This week I've been doing nothing at all, busy doing nothing...I'm so damn lazy but the relatives keep coming so it's not like my relaxing. I mean relatives who tell you they are gonna come and you are waiting and waiting and they either come very late or don't come at all argh! Okay I know everyone does it, it's just that it's so annoying and I could have been doing something all of that time wasting all the time...hmm...

Oh my females cousins who are both married came with my aunt on Thursday with the kids, which I'm glad they came....the kids are so cute but I'm damn scared of kids but I don't why and the questions they were asking "Why are you sitting down?", "why do you have a dog?", "why is your name like that?" lol...it's kinda like as if your in a interview but in a kiddy matter ...anyways they were so cute :)
........Oh I watched the Hindi film Hum Tum starring Rani Mukerjee and Saif Ali Khan on a DVD bought by dad when he went to India. We only finally watched it last night cos Billu's wife was not here because she will want to see all Hindi films that my dad bought which I've hid and would watch it 24/7...anyways the film was really really good and very very funny you should go and watch it as the acting is superb and I love story line.

Goodnight it's 2.00am :p