Wednesday, November 30, 2005

It snowed finally on Monday! although as usual for the British weather it was only just sleet. I still remember when I was very young it use to snow so much that it would grow from about 9-10 inches. Oh well we know why it only sleets rather than snow....it's global warming but where still not doing much about it.

Yesterday we had to do a group presentation and since the last presentation I did was in September (when we introduced ourselves) I had to talk. I was nervous! I just hate speaking in front of people it makes me feel uncomfortable and then I start talking really fast and then can't seem to say some easy words and then start mumbling. It's so embarrassing!
We were the first group to present and I had to speak 1st. I was fine at first until I started muddling up the words! I went bright red lol. The other girl who was doing the presentation with me was so confident and spoked so well and calmly. Why can't I be like that? But then I'm not confident as I hope to be, I just have to learn to be confident otherwise there would be no point of doing Law if your not confident right.
I'm just glad that was over and done with but we have another presentation next week on Draft Bill and I have to talk again! but at least couple of others from my group are speaking too.

Anyways gotta get my research done (although I bet I won't do it tonight, so lazy I know!) cos my coursework needs to be done over a week's time.
I also have to go and help my mum to cook because I really need to learn how to make Indian food =p. Is it just me but do alot of Asian girls cook less Indian food than say about over 10 years ago? because most of the women in my family and relatives who are less than 40 cook less Indian food or don't even know how to cook Indian food!

p.s I stopped highlighted some words in colour cos it sometimes looks funny and as you can see I sorted most of this page out - deleted links, useless info and new urls -> go check them out!

Thanks to: Bablu for commenting!

Saturday, November 26, 2005

8 months?!
it's been 8 months since I blogged on here! wow =p....that's a very long time. I have been online in the last 5 months and your probably wondering why haven't I blogged all this time.
Basically fow a while blogging and maintaining my other websites were like a chore and I became less interested in them. But I've finally got my interest back so hopefully I won't do another long haitus again =p.

The last 8 month's has passed by pretty quickly and I can't really remembered what I did in that time lol, so I'll write down the main events:

* did my A level exams in June and got my results in August and passed finally! My grades improved dramatically thankgod! I got C in Law, B in General Studies, D in Business and finally for my 4th attempt at GCSE Maths I got C. It was worthwhile 3 yrs at college to get this far.

* I started my 1st year of university life this September, so yay! For once I actually feel much more comfortable and relaxed with myself then I ever did before, so it's a good job I don't hate the uni life :p.
Oh I forgot to say I'm studying Law degree although I did change my mind before I started this course to do Criminology then Architecture. But just maybe I could do those courses in future, yes consider me as mad! I don't live in student accomodation though cos uni is nearby and it's much more cheaper.

* My dear cousin is getting married! so where going to India in February for his wedding, it's gonna be really good although the only problem for me is the flights, I'm scared of flying?!

* A couple of months ago my parent's shop got burgled! (we live upstairs) My parents went to Derby to stay for a night, me and my cousin (the one getting married next yr) were taking care of the shop.
We closed the shop I stayed upstairs, my cousin went out with his mates. About 2am while I was asleep (my cousin came back about 1am-ish) I heard both my dogs barking like mad for like 10 minutes, then I heard some kind of noise like a drilling going on. My cousin thought it was a motorbike and he looked out of the window and saw 2 guys face covered breaking into our shop. My cousin ran downstairs in the back by that time the robbers went away.
Police came told us not to go in the shop because need to take a crime scene evidence...but we opened the back door of the shop just to get a glimpse. They stole the ATM cash machine using a chainsaw!!!........I couldn't believe it! but for some reason I wasn't really shaken by what happened! However I'm glad my cousin didn't go downstairs any earlier when the burglars were there because you wouldn't know what could have happened if he saw them with the chainsaw.
So I'm very thankful nothing else happened although they never got caught. All we knew was that it was an organised crime because they robbed another 2 shops a week later for the ATM cash machines.

* In July I found out something about my life that my parents nor my family told me about which I never told any of my family nor my parents that I knew because I was feeling really angry, upset at that time but then I realised I'm glad this happened otherwise I wouldn't be the person that I am now. I've only told couple of my cousins and I was going to tell my aunty cos I knew she would understand but I haven't told her still because she's been having so many problems in her life and I didn't want add another burden on her. But I will eventually tell her. I will confront my parents eventually but it's just not the right time yet cos sometimes even I can't accept or believe about it.

* One of my cousins told me his big secret a couple of months ago (which is when I confessed about my secret to him) that he is gay which is what I never expected. Don't get me wrong I have absolutely nothing against gay people, I actually give my support to those who are gay. It's just that I never expected it you know in my own family but it just goes to show how narrowminded we can be sometimes but I'm very happy for him. I'm glad he told me, and he's told most of the cousins, sisters, aunty but not the older lot because us younger ones accept more than the older generation. But that's the only reason it's because where Indians. It's much more harder for the younger Asian generation because of our traditions and such and you know how the older ones or relatives act when we believe in something that is not traditional.

I think this is the thing I really dislike being an Asian because being open about some things that are not traditional is never really spoken about it nor accepted. I just hope gradually in time that these issues are accepted more easily.


...........I think that's all that has happened in the last 8 months, I can't remember lol. Sorry for the long blog. I gotta go help my mum in shop since it's Lotto day it gets really busy, I'll blog later.