Thanks! Teresa for your comment in my last post :)

......well I've been feeling ill since sunday and I'm just like eurgh! I dunno why it happens but at this time of the year for nearly 3 years I always get unwell for some reason but everytime I have a blood test the doctors still don't know what is up with me *sigh*. I'll be having my blood test done this friday so I will be feeling really woozy when that day comes. Mum told me I gotta go to a wedding on sunday and I seriously don't wanna go cos I feel totally crap :/. But the thing is though it's gonna be a different type of wedding because it's my mum's sister's cousin's son :p getting married and he's a Hindu while his wife-to-be is British. So it would be cool to see the wedding probably cos I have never been to a Hindu wedding ceremony I think! as I'm a Sikh and I've only seen and been to Sikh ceremonies.

But it's not down hill for me though because next sunday I'm going to London yay! to the URBAN MUSIC FESTIVAL!!!! double yay!......to see Jay-Z, Alicia Keys, Dizzy Rascal, Christina Milian, Lemar, ATL, Cassidy and more!.....triple YAY!! lol :p
so I can't wait for that as we have ordered good seats. I dunno if where allowed to take cameras but I'm gonna buy some disposable cameras to be on the safer side as I don't want my expensive camera to get taken away........my cousins and I will be staying in London for the weekend and so I can't wait to visit around there and go to the famous attractions even though my cousins only wanna go clubbin' there though I don't want to...yes sad I know but I don't care I rather go see the whole London than clubbin cos I dunno when I will be visiting London again.

.........oh and I forgot to mention something...........the stupid cousins from Canada (they moved there only for couple of months but decided to come back to UK and sell their beautiful house in Canada away - I love Canada by the way so don't take it the wrong way I'm not good at phrasing as you can see lol) have come back to UK on Sunday arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! somebody should really kill me this time! lol j/k.
God I hate them living with us in the spare flat because they always come in our side flat and using our bathroom (even though they got one on their side which I don't completely understand!), kitchen etc they never help out in my parent's shop and they get everything for free what more can you ask for...they are just greedy little a**eholes always taking advantage of my mum and dad. I wish my mum and dad could say 'no' to people but they are too nice though but I told my parents if some relative asked they could live in our spare flat (cos we don't have enough room in our flat) I'm gonna say to them that the flat got sold to someone else hehe...mean I know but I hate it when other people taking advantage of ya and when you want something from them then they say no and give you a mucky look...I wish I could punch those type of people..........................Well you see I'm mad with these cousins because they came back on sunday (I was already feeling ill and they made me feel even worser) and straightaway they got their own Broadband (they denied they got one but I know they take me for being stupid) and got my broadband account to use on their comp (got same phone lines in both flats) and they already made my internet worser cos I cannot connect at all when they use it so that's why in the last couple of days I haven't had the chance to come on online those...sneaky idiots.
............not only that yesterday my cousins (they are both boys) were play fighting in the kitchen when I was having a shower and they were still fighting when they got in to the living room....guess what?.....they broke the f**king door!!! how good is that?!.....they started to laugh a little as well as their parents did as well and they didn't say anything! can you believe that!? .......that's an insult cos when they all went out they didn't tell my mum and dad that they had broken the door off and I had to tell dad. My dad is fuming really really bad inside I can tell and my mum is getting really badly stressed out!!.....and now I have double hatred for those Plonkers!.................stupid I tell ya.


.....My week so far has gone even more weirder than last week because I joined one of those Horoscopes Dailies from Yahoo texts for my mobile (yes I believe in 'scopes :D) for past couple of months. Well on monday I was feeling really really unwell and the horoscope text I got on that day said "you are worried about a health problem remedy that you are persisting at the moment (text was something like that)...that was really really weird!! :p cos I was so worried then as well as I dunno why I always get so ill....I found a grey strand in my hair yikes! I wasn't too bothered about it but I thought I might as well cut it not yank it out as it can get worser...it may be stress but I'm not stressed about my exams I am more stressed out with the Canada and Holland lot!! but it probably could be why I'm so ill cos of stress. I've always been and worked under pressure since high school but I think it has got the better of me now.
anyways I dunno how my life is gonna get weirder but this period of my life is the damn worst I've ever had!! .....except for the person I like at college lol :p............Anywhoo (quote from Franklin in My Wife & Kids) I'll blog later if my internet still damn works!

House falling apart....
I tell ya it's been a really wierd week! Last night I went to switch on the bedroom light on to revise, after 5 minutes my light went out and made all our the lights in the house (it's 2 flats together but I call it house) go down as well so we had to find the switch button in the kitchen to get it all back on again except for my because the bulb died out and had to get another one. And then today when I came from college after 5 minutes in my room I heard a bump in my wardrobe, when I looked in, the rail where you put your clothes on a hanger snapped! Argh! Goddammit! Everything is breaking in my room or culd it be something spooky....
....well it's been quite a good day despite my wardrobe rail snapping and all my clothes on the floor which look's a complete mess even though my room is already in a tip :p .....oh well I did my homework early on today first in my life yay! not......well at least I know what clothes to keep and what not to keep, no wonder the rail friggin snapped. I think I may give my clothes to a charity, maybe my friend or sell it on Ebay...and my mum has got some clothes to give away too so I'll do same with hers as well.
I've been in my old little world in yesterday's lesson because there is someone I like in there since September but I don't think he likes me or more importantly I don't think he knows I exist :/,I don't blame him though. I've never even spoken to him or made an proper eye contact because I'm really that shy :p and I think he may laugh at me as well...you may be laughing as well thinking that I'm pathetic especially that I've never really spoken to him. But I dunno everytime I'm in that lesson I always get butterflies in my stomach *blush* lol and he seems like a really nice person as well. There's only 2 months left when we finish college and he'll be going to uni while I still be stuck in college for another year, so that's why I was kinda sad yesterday because I never pluck up the courage to speak to him.....oh well maybe it's not meant to be....

That's about really today, I think I may have the most boring blog site ever! because I dunno if anyone visits this blog :p oh well....laters

Ok well....I went back to college today bleurgh! :/. I didn't look forward to it this morning because I had Government & Politics as my first lesson and our teacher Michael had left our college to another better paid college (good for him though) before the Easter holiday and well the new teacher well how do I say it a bitch. I know that's mean but she is even more stricter and thinks we should know everything (she never teached this subject but she knows alot about it) about the topics we have done so far. But in the last 2 weeks I forgot everything from Government and Politics so I can't really remember everything. Then she told us to do a presentation in groups of 2/3. Well you see I'm really really shy about standing in front of the class and I get really embarrassed. So when it's my turn to speak I didn't know what to say. I mumbled all the words and didn't say everything I was suppose to say because I wanted to make it shorter :p. Anyways she said in a front of the whole class that I do not seem to understand the work (which is not the case by the way) and that I need to extra work at home because I'm the only one who doesn't understand. Argh! I do understand the whole damn work I just don't like talking in front of class. Now I feel such like a failure and I feel even worser about myself and education than before. I don't hate her but I don't like her. I want my old teacher back :(. He was so much better and more cooler than any teacher in the college. He did care about our work alot but also let us have fun (he even use to swear to us alot when he had to explain things to us when we didn't listen lol - he knew by swearing to us we will listen! and we sure did ;)) and he was such a nice teacher because he said I don't have to speak in front of class I can just speak where I sit or do the presentation after class ended and I only do my presentation in front of him. Good times....now bad times.....great :/

Anways I saw some of my friends at lunch but didn't speak much as it was the first day back. My last lesson was GCSE Maths (it's a resit class to pass my GCSE) and it was alright better than this morning but because I sit by myself (I'm an absolute loner in that closer but I'm glad I am) it was quite boring(basically that explains my blog :p).

I came back home at 4 and I was sure there was something different in my parent's shop then dad told me he moved stuff around...duh! I'm pathetic.........yup I have damn right low esteem today and no one should never mess with me because I act angrily and annoyed. Anyways I did some exercise to cheer me up and it did make me feel better - I've always been a very very inactive person but last week I made a pact with my mum that I'm gonna exercise at least 20 minutes a day for 5days in a week. And no I'm not exercising because of other celebs body. This is for me personally I needed to change something in my life and stop being lazy and being on internet 24/7. I needed to get my act together. And I've started my other resolution today....revising yay!! :p for the first time in my life I'm revising for once and I'm revising 6 weeks early not the night before. So I'm quite happily myself :)

Right now I'm trying to build my Jennifer Lopez fansite at a new url address not Geocities and I've got some done but I've got loads left to finish but it probably won't be open till end of next month or even in June because of the pressure of only 6 weeks left till exams!!! argh!!! I'm so stressed out and scared that I will fail like last year but I'm trying my best not to fail this year. I need someone to tell me to work hard but no one tells me to but I think it's because I work quitely in my lessons and get work done and so they presume I do the same at home. But it't not it's totally the opposite. Usually mum would ask if I done any homework or revised and I'll just say yes and lie to her and she believes me which is not a bad thing for most people :p but it is for me.

Anyways I changed the Dailies links on the right handside and put them into categories of websites and messagebaords. Blog later.......

Unconscious Mutterings:

1. Virginia:: USA
   
2. Soft:: toy
   
3. Carol:: christmas song
   
4. Vanity:: fair
   
5. Feminist::sociologist (I'm doing sociology as a subject so that's where I got my answer :p)
   
6. Alias:: law
   
7. Coward::soft
   
8. Beer:: belly
   
9. Chance:: dream
   
10. Honest:: trust
    

Friday 5: (using past questions from 19th March 03)
If you...

1. ...owned a restaurant, what kind of food would you serve?
A mix of everything I like English/british, Indian, Chinese and Italian
2. ...owned a small store, what kind of merchandise would you sell?
Entertainment things such as official merchandise from music and movies - I love collecting
3. ...wrote a book, what genre would it be?
A murder detective thriller mystery that keeps you guessing
4. ...ran a school, what would you teach?
I would teach science as I like that even though I'm not brainy at it though just interesting
5. ...recorded an album, what kind of music would be on it?
That's easy r'n'b and hiphop with couple of songs that have hint of dance, bhangra and garage.





I have been online by the way over the past month just couldn't update my blogger because it kept saying could not find server :/ so sorry about that.
Alot has been going on and I'm stressed about the exams coming up in 7 weeks cos I don't wanna do badly again like last year. So I made the resolution that I am going to start revising tomorrow even though I think I may break that resolution as I'm too lazy.
I've been on the Friends Of Mariah Messageboard if you a Mariah fan it's very interactive. I can't wait for Mariah's album to be finished this year as her last album was amazing :p. JLo is still writing her album so I can't wait for hers as well. She's wrapped 'Shall We Dance?' with Richard Gere and it looks pretty good but it might not come out till end of year for us in UK :(

How hectic can it be to order concert tickets? GOD! I ordered tickets to go URBAN MUSIC FESTIVAL on 9th May in London for 11 of us (me and my cousins). Well they all said we wanna go and they'll pay back my dad the money. I thought alright I'll order the tickets, after I order the tickets some said they can't go they haven't go enough money and whatever. So my cousin Pinny got mad and forced everyone to go and now they are going. But they are blaming me for ordering the tickets when I did ask did they want to go and that I needed 100% answer they all did say yes. What are cousins like! But we booked a hotel near Earl's Court so we will be staying a night over there.

I also booked tickets to Ushers as well on 1st July and 8 of us are going and they are defientely going because it is in NEC Birmingham.
I had two weeks easter holiday but it was crap as it's gone too quick and now I'm gonna go back to college tomorrow :(. I'm seriously not looking forward it because I dunno if they gonna test us to see if we revised and I haven't revised yet.


Anyways I updated the left handside and right hand side page. I'll probably blog tomorrow if I have the time but I need to start revising :/