This week has gone really quick, seriously! So I'll be making an small post because I'm going to my cousins in a bit to celebrate new year with the whole family :p.

I hoped everyone had a great Christmas! I had an really good Christmas with the whole family...it makes me really happy how much we all get along and finally after so long we played some board games - Absolute Balderdash and Cranium -> and they actually liked it for once :p....we did some karoake as well but I only did one song because I hate singing my voice is really that bad lol. But still I think we had one of the best Christmases in a very long time!

Anyways I hope everyone has a great time tonight and have someone/friends/family to celebrate with.

Happy New Year!

2006

Hope everyone has a good start of the new year and benefit good things all year round

Feeling a little better these days except for the cough! Christmas on Sunday and we haven't really prepared anything for it so far except for few little decorations.
But can't find the Christmas tree we had for so many years - it's one of those little 3 foot artificial trees :p. I don't think we have ever had a normal size tree that you tend to see in alot of people's houses.

Got some presents even though we are not suppose to give presents this year but what the hell it won't be Xmas without presents, right?

You know when you were younger and you played all these cool board games on Xmas, didn't it use so much fun? But as you get older you play them less and less until it feels like it's not Xmas anymore? It's like that for us, I bought the Cranium board game last Xmas but nobody played it, apparently it looked too hard! when in fact it's not.

The only 'fun' things we do on Christmas is play video games, DVD games like karaoke and watch TV mainly soap specials...it sounds pretty boring but obviously we always add an Asian flavour to Christmas and that's dancing to bhangra and singing hindi songs while everyone else except me get tipsy lol! (I don't drink).


Anyways I hope everyone has a nice weekend and and have a lovely Christmas atmosphere.

oOoO~ Merry Christmas ~OoOo

No I haven't stopped blogging =p...I really have been busy in this past week - all last week I was starting on my 1st proper coursework (which I was suppose to start 3 weeks ago!) and got it done just in time before the deadline of 12pm this Monday but I don't think I done well on it. I hadn't start IT file (which again I was suppose to start a long time ago lol) till this Tuesday and handed it in just before the deadline yesterday.

I'm really unwell as well. I was fine yesterday until later on when I had temperature, headache feeling sick etc but probably cos I couldn't sleep at all the other night...and the outcome out of this, is that I have flu!. So I feel a little dazy today and I'm speaking really funny lol. I'm glad it happened now rather than earlier on otherwise I would miss lectures and tutorials and probably wouldn't have got all my coursework done.

I can only blog this much because I feel a little funny now but today I can celebrate a little because it's start of my university vacation for the next 3 weeks since beginning of September yay!

I can't believe it's Christmas next Sunday all of a sudden...it doesn't feel very Christmasy (except for TV ads obviously) this year. Apparently this Christmas my aunty said where not giving presents this year but I bet ya there will be! - and everyone's coming for Christmas to our place but we haven't put any Christmas decorations yet. Use to be so fun when you were younger but sometimes you think Christmas as you get older as a day where it's only about presents and commercialism. But I always say it brings the whole family together especially for my family.

oh and my presentation went quite well I think :p I'm just not looking forward to next one as it's going to be an mock court trial and our teacher is going to choose what role we get!

Thanks to: Bablu and Santosh for commenting =D

Went to my cousin's house on Friday (the one who just recently got engaged to a girl in India) although we didn't do an suprise party as they came back from India on that day and they were still jet lagged lol. But we went out to a restaurant and it was pretty nice, like a family get together which is what we use to do when we were younger but as you get older it get's less and less.

Watched the engagement on the DVDs made from India although most of them don't work! but the engagement photo album expressed more words and emotions than the DVDs.......it's quite stange to me though as you'd think watching video in life like would express everything but still pictures give more meanings as you interpet it differently and interpet it in many possible ways.

I'm blogging this late because my computer is messed up again and had to restore everything and lost all my files!! argh!.........computer always messes up when you need it the most. Gonna get the computer fixed next week since we break up on 16th from university yay!

Not looking forward to Tuesday morning though because I got the presentation to do and I have the longest part - please help me! =p.

Thanks to Bablu for commenting!

It snowed finally on Monday! although as usual for the British weather it was only just sleet. I still remember when I was very young it use to snow so much that it would grow from about 9-10 inches. Oh well we know why it only sleets rather than snow....it's global warming but where still not doing much about it.

Yesterday we had to do a group presentation and since the last presentation I did was in September (when we introduced ourselves) I had to talk. I was nervous! I just hate speaking in front of people it makes me feel uncomfortable and then I start talking really fast and then can't seem to say some easy words and then start mumbling. It's so embarrassing!
We were the first group to present and I had to speak 1st. I was fine at first until I started muddling up the words! I went bright red lol. The other girl who was doing the presentation with me was so confident and spoked so well and calmly. Why can't I be like that? But then I'm not confident as I hope to be, I just have to learn to be confident otherwise there would be no point of doing Law if your not confident right.
I'm just glad that was over and done with but we have another presentation next week on Draft Bill and I have to talk again! but at least couple of others from my group are speaking too.

Anyways gotta get my research done (although I bet I won't do it tonight, so lazy I know!) cos my coursework needs to be done over a week's time.
I also have to go and help my mum to cook because I really need to learn how to make Indian food =p. Is it just me but do alot of Asian girls cook less Indian food than say about over 10 years ago? because most of the women in my family and relatives who are less than 40 cook less Indian food or don't even know how to cook Indian food!

p.s I stopped highlighted some words in colour cos it sometimes looks funny and as you can see I sorted most of this page out - deleted links, useless info and new urls -> go check them out!

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8 months?!
it's been 8 months since I blogged on here! wow =p....that's a very long time. I have been online in the last 5 months and your probably wondering why haven't I blogged all this time.
Basically fow a while blogging and maintaining my other websites were like a chore and I became less interested in them. But I've finally got my interest back so hopefully I won't do another long haitus again =p.

The last 8 month's has passed by pretty quickly and I can't really remembered what I did in that time lol, so I'll write down the main events:

* did my A level exams in June and got my results in August and passed finally! My grades improved dramatically thankgod! I got C in Law, B in General Studies, D in Business and finally for my 4th attempt at GCSE Maths I got C. It was worthwhile 3 yrs at college to get this far.

* I started my 1st year of university life this September, so yay! For once I actually feel much more comfortable and relaxed with myself then I ever did before, so it's a good job I don't hate the uni life :p.
Oh I forgot to say I'm studying Law degree although I did change my mind before I started this course to do Criminology then Architecture. But just maybe I could do those courses in future, yes consider me as mad! I don't live in student accomodation though cos uni is nearby and it's much more cheaper.

* My dear cousin is getting married! so where going to India in February for his wedding, it's gonna be really good although the only problem for me is the flights, I'm scared of flying?!

* A couple of months ago my parent's shop got burgled! (we live upstairs) My parents went to Derby to stay for a night, me and my cousin (the one getting married next yr) were taking care of the shop.
We closed the shop I stayed upstairs, my cousin went out with his mates. About 2am while I was asleep (my cousin came back about 1am-ish) I heard both my dogs barking like mad for like 10 minutes, then I heard some kind of noise like a drilling going on. My cousin thought it was a motorbike and he looked out of the window and saw 2 guys face covered breaking into our shop. My cousin ran downstairs in the back by that time the robbers went away.
Police came told us not to go in the shop because need to take a crime scene evidence...but we opened the back door of the shop just to get a glimpse. They stole the ATM cash machine using a chainsaw!!!........I couldn't believe it! but for some reason I wasn't really shaken by what happened! However I'm glad my cousin didn't go downstairs any earlier when the burglars were there because you wouldn't know what could have happened if he saw them with the chainsaw.
So I'm very thankful nothing else happened although they never got caught. All we knew was that it was an organised crime because they robbed another 2 shops a week later for the ATM cash machines.

* In July I found out something about my life that my parents nor my family told me about which I never told any of my family nor my parents that I knew because I was feeling really angry, upset at that time but then I realised I'm glad this happened otherwise I wouldn't be the person that I am now. I've only told couple of my cousins and I was going to tell my aunty cos I knew she would understand but I haven't told her still because she's been having so many problems in her life and I didn't want add another burden on her. But I will eventually tell her. I will confront my parents eventually but it's just not the right time yet cos sometimes even I can't accept or believe about it.

* One of my cousins told me his big secret a couple of months ago (which is when I confessed about my secret to him) that he is gay which is what I never expected. Don't get me wrong I have absolutely nothing against gay people, I actually give my support to those who are gay. It's just that I never expected it you know in my own family but it just goes to show how narrowminded we can be sometimes but I'm very happy for him. I'm glad he told me, and he's told most of the cousins, sisters, aunty but not the older lot because us younger ones accept more than the older generation. But that's the only reason it's because where Indians. It's much more harder for the younger Asian generation because of our traditions and such and you know how the older ones or relatives act when we believe in something that is not traditional.

I think this is the thing I really dislike being an Asian because being open about some things that are not traditional is never really spoken about it nor accepted. I just hope gradually in time that these issues are accepted more easily.


...........I think that's all that has happened in the last 8 months, I can't remember lol. Sorry for the long blog. I gotta go help my mum in shop since it's Lotto day it gets really busy, I'll blog later.

This is the 2nd time I had to do this post again :/ something wrong with my blogger argh!!

Hi sorry again :p been so busy with college life and homelife, so sorry. Whoo! alot has been going on for me I can't hardly remember what's been happening in the last 2 weeks lol.

Like said before I got mum an bracelet and it broke so got her a newer and even nicer one than I got....still from the same jewellery shop anyways she likes it so that's a good thing! although I didn't get my mum an Mother's Day present because I had no clue what to get her and I still don't...bad!...so I'm still trying to find mum a nice gift.

Went to see my cousin who had a baby about 6 weeks ago and the little baby girl is adorable although I didn't hold her because I thought I might drop her as I'm a really clumsy person :p but I was really unwell on that day because I couldn't go to sleep the night before as I felt I was going to be sick.....I'm scared of being sick and I thought I was gonna but I never was sick! it's quite annoying though when that happens cos you just want to get it over with lol.

Went to a birthday party last week for my mum's uncle's grandson :p....it was cool since it was in my childhood area....although I know this isn't funny but I thought it was when the day after the party occured relatives starting calling everyone because alot of people had the diarrhea (not that you want to know :p) by eating the lamb (I don't like lamb and it was an indian style) that wasn't cooked probably.....so although it wasn't a funny problem it was funny that relatives kept calling each other to see who ate it and who's had it bad.

Got my exam results last week from the exams I sat in January and the grades are okay :/ ...it wan't what I expected as I thought I was starting to do really well this year as I did understand more and worked hard but then there's still exams coming up in June so probably I can up my grades....and for the university application so far I got 3 conditional offers (depends on my exams results in June), 1 rejection (a uni which I chose as my last choice anyway) and still waiting for 2 uni to respond which is really agonising as I want to get it all done and choose the two uni's I want to go to then do my exams so I know which uni I can go to. I know what my first choice is but for my 2nd choice uni I have absolutely no clue.

I have loads to write but as you know I can't be bothered lol :p
By the way there are new banners below the hotspots section, check them out thanks.

Thanks to these people for commenting =D : Jr, Bablu and Paul.

Busy again :p argh!!....I know I said I was going to blog about my events last week but can't be bothered lol feel too lazy.
My mum is now 56 already but to everyone else including me she look's only 40 but alot of older people are starting to look more younger while younger people are starting to look more older!
I got her an £80 gold/black bracelet from an local asian jeweller so basically it isn't an really good make because mum has been wearing it since yesterday and this morning it was broken :( so that was really crap and I thought I must have been stupid to get that gift :p.....so going to return the bracelet tomorrow and get an refund to spend it somewhere else and this time taking my mum to find the jewellery she wants...as now I need to get her a Mothers Day gift argh!.

I'll be going to my cousins later on tomorrow as where going to see my other cousin who had an baby on Sunday morning....I just hope we come back early though because I gotta do this and that on Sunday night - sunday night suppose to be an relaxing day but never is :p Hopefully tomorrow we might go out to cinema if any good film is on and probably go out for something to eat.
Gotta help my parents to close the shop now :p

Thanks to Khushee and Bablu for commenting =D

I'm blogging to say I'm still alive! lol :p ....it's been a very busy week again and as usual my Broadband connection went funny and my whole computer crashed down and frozed....good job I saved my files otherwise I'll be pulling my hair out and screaming and blame it on someone else as I had to reinstall the whole computer all over again :p..............
there's loads to blog but I don't have time to write it all down today so I'll try to blog the events tomorrow or Wednesday the lastest hopefully.........I can't believe Mother's Day is just around the corner on the 6th March!! it's too damn early and it's my mum's birthday as well this thursday and I have absolutely no clue what to buy her at all!.....cos usually I use to buy well dad use to buy :p gold Indian expensive jewellery but she doesn't want them anymore and I have no idea what she wants ......and I actually have to buy an 3rd present for mum anyway cos I didn't get anything for her birthday last year oops! I know I'm a bad daughter :p but I promise to buy my beautiful mum presents this year.

Anyone have any idea's what can I buy for my mum's birthday and Mother's Day since the events are this week?!
Gotta go and do stupid homework.

Thanks to: Bablu and for commenting :)

I haven't blogged in the last few days as I had the mock exams so had to decrease my time on here...thankgod it's weekend :p.
I think my cousin from Holland and his wife who have been living with us for nearly 2 years! (although they seem like strangers to me) will hopefully be going back to Holland for good in the beginning of March - crossing my fingers hoping it's for definite.
Probably going to town to shop with my cool hip aunt which I haven't done in a long time but I definitely know how to save my money in a way now :p.....and probably going to watch the Bollywood movie too Black - been really eager to watch since it's different and has no songs and this time only 2 hours :p. Oh and I think the director Sanjay Leela Bhansali who made the film is awesome (Devdas is still my favourite movie).
Gotta check my email and have breakfast as I've only just woken up now so I'm half asleep still lol.

Thanks to Khushee and Bablu for commenting :)

I hope everyone who are loved-up had an nice Valentine's Day yesterday :)

Back at college urgh! but it's okay. Though I've got two mock exams on Thursday and Friday. I gotta revise tonight - it's gonna be a really busy week.
It's really weird seeing people change. I've seen a few people who I use to be good friends with at school and promised we will keep in touch when we leave college. But that's hardly happened lol...I saw an friend the other day in town with her new friends and I said hi but she just smiled and walked off...I mean there's nothing wrong with that but we use to be really close friends and she never even spoken to me for like 2 minutes...But I guess people change as time changes and you have to move on...but the thing with me is that I like keep the old things with me just so I can remember the really good times when I was younger but it's kinda like I'm a time trap which I gotta learn to move on.

Is it me or is time flying really fast for these last couple of years? I dunno why but I just feel like I've only spent like 3 months in a year :p and it's already February in 2005 and I haven't exactly done anything really but then probably that's the reason why I feel my life is going way past me :p.

By the way I have new sites opened :) check them out if ya like: Sanjay Leela Bhansali, Veer Zaara OST, JLo Fan Team and Joan Of Arcadia clique


Thanks to Bablu and Khushee for commenting as always :p

I hope you like the new layout :) it features the famous Japanese singer Ayumi Hamasaki - it's only recently I've been in J-Pop music :p.
This weekend my broadband has been going on and off so everytime I tried to post the internet kept going off :(. So hopefully it won't happen now when I post here.

Couple of weeks ago I went to one of my cousin's engagement party and it was quite good although he never showed the pic of the girl that he's going to marry but I think in the next 3 months we will be going to the girl's side for the engagement party so I'll get to see her then :).
On that night when we when to my cousin's engagement party we went to my other cousin's house :p to see her baby girl she gave birth to recently. She had an casceraen (sp?) but the baby is so cute although I'm shy and nervous around babies and children lol :P so that's why I hope no one passes their baby and children to tell me to hold them or take care of them because I just won't know what to do lol :p.

Going back to college tomorrow...urgh!! and urgh!!...I just don't look forward to college this year but it's only couples of months left and I'm counting my next term already for the Easter holidays :p.....I gotta do the homework cos I still haven't done it and it's in tomorrow eek! and then I got essay to do for tuesday!...so gotta get busy busy.


Thanks to: Khushee for commenting :)

Again sorry for my long hiatus from my blog :( ...my stupid broadband connection keeps messing up - everytime I went on the computer for the last couple of weeks my username and password kept changing which was really weird but I think this is happening cos the cash machine, phone, lottery and credit machine are on the same phone line downstair in the shop....so basically my internet is going to keep on messing up forever :/ argh!

I've missed so much online I need to get back into my old usual habit of checking others blogs out and JLo news and stuff :p.....actually it was good timing that my internet hasn't been working for the last couple of weeks because my health and wellbeing has well and truly taken it's toll over me...I've never been so burnt out before - I use to sleep like 2ish am and wake up like 7am for college then weekends sleep even later and wake up at 11/12ish in the morning :p so yeah my sleeping pattern was really messed up it was gonna take it's toll sooner or later....I mean doing that for a long period of years has kinda messed up my concentration as nearly every single lesson for the last 4 weeks I actually started falling asleep in them seriously :p but I am kinda getting into habit by going to sleep early like 12.45ish am at the mo' (not alot but I'm trying to cut down my waking hours slowly :p)

Same with what I'm eating and drinking has finally tooken it's toll on my health...I never liked drinking water so I always drank Lucozade and nothing else...so yeah never just drink fizzy drinks all the time because you get really unwell and have stomach problems with all that acid messing your system...but yeah I haven't touched Lucozade or any fizzy drink for a while and instead of drinking water which I hate I now drink diluted drink with water - it really does work it's made me feel so much better and less unwell.
I always use to eat the bad stuff meaning everything that was convenient to make in the microwave because it was easier and lazier :p but it kept making me feel sluggish all the time but I'm now actually wait for it..... :p.....trying to learn cook for once :p so I'm trying to eat the good stuff and eating more vegetables and fruit....I'm pretty happy with myself with these changes because it really affected me badly by being depressed and that but I am feeling much more better about myself now so hopefully I will continue like this cos I don't really wanna go back to my old habits.

I know this post sounds like how to eat healthy and keep a good wellbeing as such :p but it makes me feel better and hopefully everyone keeps a good wellbeing of themselves because taking bad care of oneself will take it's toll sooner or later....I think I mainly did this because I might have to move away from home if the university I want to go to is faraway and all these stories you hear about uni students drinking beer basically every night and eating mostly bad food so I had to get my act up :p and learn cooking because my mum won't be there to make anything, washing clothes etc
....eek! so scary thinking about all these massive changes that is gonna happen when I leave college but suppose it's a good thing to get away and try to be more of an adult who can take care of herself well...Other thing that I gotta tackle though is learn how to drive!! which I still haven't applied an license for :P but I really gotta though otherwise probably my dad will still have to drive me around porbably when I get into my 30's lol :p.

I got loads to blog still but there's too much already I done so far so I probably blog tomorrow....it's half term at the moment from college but going back to college on Monday :( and got a mock test for Business Studies which I haven't revised for yet :/.....gotta do 3 homeworks which I still haven't done, updates the sites and visit blogs/messageboards to check out so got a lot to do :p

.................oh and I forgot to say I got 2 offers so far from 2 universities :D although they are "conditional" offers which means it will depend on my exams in June :( but at least I did get offers I thought I won't get any.....still waiting for other 4 unis to respond back to me to see if I'm accepted or rejected...argh!!! I really hate all these waiting.


Thanks to: Bablu and Khushee for commenting :D
p.s. I'm gonna change layout out soon

Today was just not my day....I mean in the morning I was fine but then the day kinda became a bad luck day.
After I finished college my puppy was on a chain and I thought dad forgot to take the chain off Tyson before he left to cash'n'carry but when I took the chain off I didn't realise dad was already here unloading stock and unfortuntely the front gate was open :p and the puppy ran out...and yup my dad get really mad at me and told me to bring Tyson back but I didn't wanna cos he was in someone else's garden and he then ran off to the pub so dad had to get him :p oops it took him about 10 minutes to get him and obviously my dad wasn't in a good mood oops!
Me and mum were going to my dear late grandma/Bibi to get my aunt's stuff for charity but I didn't close the slide door properly on our 8 seater car so I made the door get stuck doh!....went to grannies then to my cousin's who lives few streets away from my grans, stayed their for a while but when me and mum said our goodbyes I fell down on the outside steps! so embarrassing lol even the next door neighbours saw me fell and began laughing at me :....
We then had to go to my dad's friend's shop which is in our area to give him bread and such for his shop but because I jammed the doors duh! I nearly fell into the back seats when I tried to reach for the stuff :p

It really wasn't my day :p
Oh and I had another exam the other day but it was a practice for the Key Skills level 3 and it was pretty hard as I've gone on the next higher level of it...but for now I don't have to worry about exams till May :D

Thanks to: Khushee, Bablu, Santosh and Jen for commenting =D!

Been busy.........had two exams this week one for Law and one for General Studies...I think they went well but for my Law exam I didn't put much knowledge as I should have but I can still re-sit in June - This week was seriously like a blur that felt like it took forever to end.

About my parent's shop incident the lads got let off by the police >:( it seriously gets me angry that these people can get away over a numerous times with these stupid antics to innocent people....I've really had enough of it, some people say they are only young and they always bound to do mistakes, well if they are going to do mistakes why do they keep repeating and repeating it? It seriously offends me not everyone understands what it feel likes for shopkeepers to suffer from these stupid kids thinking it's all fun and harmless when it's not fun nor harmless...argh!!!
The only thing that's been right this week was council people came and cleaned off the whole writing on the shop and finally after nearly 2 years the CCTV cameras that have been on outside our shop and flat are finally operating it.....just let's see if police and council will ever take an proper action against the kids over these antics.

.....other things that happened this week are my cousin had an baby girl (I'm shy around babies and scared lol :p) on Friday and my other cousin is getting engaged but I don't know who the girl is he is marrying to but me and mum are gonna see them this Saturday coming.
Gonna try update all the sites in these next couple of days if I can.

Thanks to Bablu and Jen for commenting :)

It's been a pretty bad week:
I just got my Maths GCSE results back (I did re-sit in November) and I got a damn D again!.....I can't seem to get a C grade :(...so I really gotta try my hardest in June although I don't think my teacher will be happy when she seems me on Tuesday :(.......

Last night the takeaway up our road got their car window smashed by kids before midnight and at 2.00am when I finally got to bed :p I heard loud noises on the front of the shop (my room is on the otherside, pposite of shop way) ...I thought they were newspaper men cos they come at this time putting newspapers in trolley but mum woke up saw some stupid d**kheads using the takeaways smashed window car and rammed it up into our shop shutters to break it down....thankgod we had shutters otherwise the shop would get smashed up...mum shouted at them but they drove off with the car....
it took police 10 minutes to come asked us what happened, they went to search for the lads (we know who they are as mum has banned them 100 times from shop) they couldn't find them but they took statements from us....and fortunately an house opposite of us saw what happened and knew who the boys were so they have gave their statements too .
....my dad has to go this morning to police station you know to give a proper full statement they said they got someone but didn't tell dad who it was, so I'm really hoping they get those b**t**ds (sorry for language but I'm still fuming about it) they really deserve to be banged up.

I just don't get it why do they do it?? do they think it's fun or something? or is it cos they are bored and high on drugs and alcohol? cos that will be the most stupidiest explanations I will ever hear if that's why they did it....it really is dumb to smash up someone's property just for fun they wouldn't like it if someone did that to their house but then probably they wouldn't be too bothered because all they do here the usual stupid teenagers around here is get high, get wasted and ruin other peoples lives for their fun....I'm still so suprised how mum and dad have never weakened or left this area by these stupid idiots for the past 15 years they opened the shop. I was hoping this year would be a better turnaround here but obviously I doubt that is ever gonna happen.


This was suppose to be Thursday post but I forgot to put it in my blog :p
THURSDAY POST BELOW:

I had a Law re-sit exam an hour ago so I'm feeling a bit relieved at the moment :p.....But I think I've messed up my last 2 questions because I forgot what cases to put on and I've put some wrong definitions :(.....I just hope when I get my results in March that they are better than last year cos I'm doing quite well in class on the Law knowledge but when it comes to exams I'm crap at it lol....really weird. Still got 2 more exams next week so I'm gonna be busy again....hopefully I'm busy on revision and not on the internet :p.

Feeling a bit angry with myself cos my aunties and mum asked me if I wanted to go to Canada in summer but I said no because I'm really afraid of flying....especially the last time I went on holiday to Toronto I was screaming my head off lol....but it's not really funny though cos I feel like I'm gonna die in airplanes as I always feel sick, my head goes really cold, I get a really bad headache, temperature and a really dried up mouth that I feel like as I'm gonna choke thinking my tongue is gonna flip back and trap my airwave....that's how I feel before I get on, during and after on the airplane!.....I know alot of people think I'm really stupid cos of that but that's how I really feel....I think my family might think I'm dumb and anti-social but it really isn't easy for me to just get on flight and think it will be a pleasant ride......I would love to go on holidays but this fear/phobia is holding me back.....I want to get professional help lol you know like hypnotism as I heard you get sucessful results by that....but if I wanted to get professional help I think my family will laugh at me but I haven't asked them about it so I dunno if that's what they are gonna do......but I am pretty embarrased by my fear.


I gotta fix all the forms on all of my sites because I did them wrong :p but it's gonna take a while......by the way please visit my JLo Fan Team :D it's a website dedicated to JLo fans or those who like JLo to help and support her through her career...please join and support thanks! :)

Being back at college feels awful at the moment because one of my exams is next week and I'm hoping I don't panic or forget anything when I begin my exams cos I always do lol :p.....hope me good luck!
Got my Japanese/Chinese/Korean CDs from YesAsia online shopping and most of them are awesome but the two albums I really like cannot be stored on my computer and I have to use the audio player software that is on the album :/
I can't really remember anything I done since Monday :x so you can tell my mind is pretty out of space :p....On Tuesday for my Law class we had to make notes for exam questions that she was gonna test us today like an exam practice...I was stuck with some parts but then I realised after exam that we were allowed to use the notes we made on Tuesday duh! :p
Gotta do homework for Business Studies tomorrow and were gonna watch either "Bride & Prejudice" (I've already seen it at cinema) or "AvP" on DVD tonight but can't decide!

Thanks to Bablu and Khushee for their comments :).

Hope everyone had a Happy New Year :) hopefully this year is much better and I did have an good time when we celebrated the day :)
I'm so happy that people of Tsunami disaster have hope as the money keeps coming in for the relief and it's helping them pretty well. :) Oh and my parents donated £100 to the relief to help those poor people.

Jennifer Lopez is back!! yay lol :p The new single "Get Right" is awesome and the preview for the music video is breath-taking! It's taken from her new album out in Feburary titled "Rebirth" so I can't damn wait!...on the first day the single and album release as usual I'll pick it up straight away! So I'm pretty happy my idol is back to dominate the charts to a new year! Remember to check her single out and buy her album!

Back to college tomorrow urgh! urgh! urgh! lol...I'm beginning to hate my last year maybe because nearly all my friends left college and gone to uni and I've hardly got anyone here to talk to :/ .........but it's not just that I got 3 exams next week and week after and I still haven't revised yikes!!! :( I can't help it! I can't be bothered to revise but I know one of my teachers is gonna test us on Wednesday so I gotta revise tonight....oh well I'll have to try my best but no one tells me to revise that's why I get less and less motivated.
Anyways gotta get my things ready for college tomorrow :( I wanna die lol....see ya later.

Thanks! to Bablu for commenting :).