Lol! I did it again, haven't post for a while here. I think because there are so many blogs online now due to social networking boom, I feel bit inadequate to blog now!
Anyways I will start blogging again I need to change the layout first! I had this layout of Ayumi Hamasaki I made for god knows how long but I don't know if I can be bothered to make my own layouts anymore :p
....so on the hunt for a new nice clean design by another designer!

Wow!! I cannot believe that I haven't updated my blog for 2 years!! lol another record I guess! :p I think it was because I just got bored of blogging and couldn't get back in to it but finally decided to come back.....but won't be blogging for at least these next 2 weeks because of my final year exams in my law degree, and I'm so petrified that I won't do well!! better get on with my revising...

I really need to change everything in this blog - the contents, layout etc but for now you can visit my current fanlistings....see ya until exams are over!

I know what your thinking what the hell is wrong with me for not updating after coming back from India! Sorry I guess I was kinda lazy only joking.
Too much has been going on lately, my mind is kinda everywhere and keep thinking of 'what ifs' and 'whys'. Since finding out my parents are not my biological parents but my biological mother and father is my dad's brother and sister-in-law...then realising I'm not an only child I have twin older sisters and a older brother.
Even though I still haven't told my parents that I know I found out by finding my birth certificate then being really shocked and dazed for a while, I thought I was alrite about it but I'm very happy and grateful that they brought me up as their child.

I was dealing with it really well by myself until I told one of my cousins and now my close cousins know and my mum's 2 sisters - I'm not exactly the type of person who confides to someone about everything because sometimes I like to deal with things by myself but I found my close family members are always supportive and I think that's how we all stick so well...I see my cousins as brothers and my younger aunty like a best friend...I told them I knew but I never told them how I felt.
I thought I was dealing with it well by myself until last weekend when I was with my aunty and my cousin when they asked how I felt...and I don't why but I just burst out crying and didn't realise it actual still does affect me...I guess you can't always deal with things by yourself and you need support of others. It felt like the weight was taken off my shoulder when I told my cousin and aunt how I felt, so I'm glad my emotions came out then because if I didn't have an emotion outburst sooner I don't think I would have been able to deal with it.

But anyways I'm in no way angry with my parents for not telling me I guess they were protecting me from the truth especially in my teenage years as my emotions were everywhere during that time or that I may use this excuse in an argument with them without thinking.

The family members who I've told haven't told mum and dad yet but they told me they are with me when I want to tell my parents what I know and that it doesn't change anything, they will always be my parents no matter what. A few occasions I've tried to confront my parents but nothing comes out my mouth...my fear is that if I tell them it might hurt them because I kept this secret from them for nearly 10 months now. I think I'm scared that they might treat me differently or that everything may change making sure they won't say anything wrong to me and I won't say anything wrong to them.
But I will tell them until I feel really comfortable enough to say something...I will have to tell them the truth sooner or later.


My time in India
Okay enough with my messed up head =p I really had an awesome time in India although I went for a week I loved every minute of it. My cousin's wedding was beautiful and very tiring getting all the preparations, the clothes, shoes etc done in time!
I'm seriously not use to waking up at 5/6am in the morning everyday lol. Everyday we was doing something or going somewhere. Went to the Golden Temple after we boarded our flight at 5 in the morning but it was really beautiful made me feel like I was right at home. Went to lots more gurdwaras in the first few days, then a Hindu temple (1st time I've been to a Hindu temple so I didn't really know the customs that well but it was beautiful), shopping, shopping, shopping, family outings and more shopping! We usually came back at home 2/3am in the morning so you can guess when I came back to England I stayed in bed allday during the weekend =p.

Although we had a really scary incident in Jallandhur (spelling?) when shopping for my cousin's wedding. It was all females in the car except for the driver we finished the shopping at 9pm (yes a stupid mistake for all women to go somewhere we hardly even know just for shopping!) and then went for McDonalds. After Mcdonalds a car behind kept flashing at us, our driver kept indicating to that car to take over him but strangely didn't...next minute you know they were chasing our car - that really scared the living daylights out me! because they kept chasing us trying to make us stop and then trying to slam their car into ours!

Then the engine burst in our car when the driver did a 3 point turn to keep away from that car!!! I seriously thought that was it we were gonna die cos you only see this in movies, just good job there was a petrol station nearby. The driver stopped and a guy dressed in a policeman's suit came out of that car telling us all to get out of the car but we just locked all the doors and windows...cos there were 3 suspicious people in that car with scarves over their faces. Thankfully my cousin's aunty was with us because she's a police woman. She went hysterical whwn she go out of the car shouting at the guy that they nearly try to kill us chasing us, she then asked for his ID but he just ran back in the car and sped off! I just couldn't believe what happened I'm just grateful she was there if she wasn't then we would have been in deep trouble.

We didn't realise that the car was following us all that time when we were shopping at Frontiers. Apparently another 3 people got robbed near this shop on the same night of the incident and 1 victim was seriously injured. I'm just glad that everyone else was okay and didn't get harmed. At least we learned our lesson!


Anyways going to India was kinda a spiritual enlightenment for me =) I didn't let any issues or worries that I had in England get to me while in India so as you would know I was extremely happy in India and can't wait to go again....and this is speaking from a girl who use to hate going to India lol...but one thing that hasn't changed I'm still scared of flying!
Oh and I never use to drink coffee and cappucino before but I've become addicted to Indian cappuccino! - British cappuccino just can't compare lol.


Thanks to these guys for commenting =) : Bablu, Lisa and Faras.

p.s need to change the layout had it on for too long although I haven't designed in a really long time so the new layout won't probably be up after few posts....need to get my creative skills juicing :p

Happy Valentine's Day

Hope everyone is having a lovely day with their other half or secret admirers :p...it's funny Valentine's Day. It's quite commercialised but it's also a great day cos many people feel great and you can feel some love from everyone...so it's not all bad, even when you don't get a Valentine's Card :p

I'm going to India tomorrow! Well thursday actually at 4am but gonna stay at my cousin's tomorrow night so it's gonna be a little stressful. I need someone to hold my hand when I'm on the flight, I'm too scared to go on it!

I also asked my tutor for extension on the coursework thats has to be handed in on Monday (i'll be in India). At first she wouldn't give the extension, she thought I didn't deserve it lol since it's no excuse for not getting the work done earlier on. But she's allowed me to have an extension until I come back from India then I'll have to hand it in. So I'll have to do my work in India but hopefully I can get it done by then which I doubt it!

Oh and I went to watch Final Destination 3 with my cousin on saturday and it is quite good but pretty gory but I don't understand why filmmakers think it's necessary to always have some nudity in films - although it was actually necessary for that death!

I won't be online till the 26th feburary when I come back from India but I hope everyone has a great time and I'll see you soon!


Thanks these guys for commenting =) : Bablu, Lisa and Isaac.

My Dell laptop arrived on Thursday and it's pretty cool. Although I now think I don't need it :p...and I'm pretty dumb when it comes to wireless internet connection, maybe I'll have to change my ISP provider to get a package for internet connection on the PC and laptop.
But I'm still getting use to the laptop...I thought there was something wrong with the cursor moving only to realise instead of the touch pad on the laptop I was using my PC's mouse and keyboard lol.

I got both of my courseworks back with just a 'bare' pass so I dunno if it's a good thing or a bad thing but I got D grade (I really do think I'm cursed cos I always get a D grade for nearly everything lol) for them.
I've only got a week left to get my 3rd coursework finished (I would had 2 weeks to do it if my cousin wasn't getting married) before going to India.
So it's really stressful at the moment cos I also gotta my tutorials done as well!


I thought I'll do the words game where I have to think of a word from Unconscious Mutterings :

1. Taking sides:: games
   
2. Couples:: love
   
3. Right of refusal:: freedom
   
4. Marla:: Grey (don't ask lol)
   
5. Multiple:: maths
   
6. Trinity:: Street (street I use to live on as a kid)
   
7. Sneeze:: cold
   
8. Sweatpants:: comfy
   
9. Steve:: Austin (I use to be a big fan of wrestling when I was younger :p)
   
10. Fabulous:: fashion
    

Thanks to: Bablu and Lisa for commenting!

It's been really busy so I didn't have time to blog...I've only just started today to get things sorted in the luggage for India but I keep forgetting what other stuff I need to put in :p

Went shopping twice to MeadowHall but I only bought 2 things as my whole family went to get the guys clothes sorted out while us girls/women getting our clothes sorted in India for my cousin's wedding.

Went to watch Rang De Basanti on Saturday and we asked for the 9.45pm showing. The guy who checks your tickets said we are in screen 4 when we got there the film had already started even though we came 15 minutes early before the actual time the show starts!...after a while we realised something was wrong with the movie as it finished in an hour! only to realise the box office gave us the wrong tickets and the ticket guy told us the wrong screen!! I couldn't believe lol.
Knowing most of my family members they started complaining to them for like 15 minutes and it was kinda embarrassing because there was a massive queue at the box office lol. But they gave us free tickets for next time for any new movies which is good. But still I know what the story is all about in the film but I didn't get the chance to see how all the characters are like and how the story develops etc....oh well.

Oh and I'm feeling much more better now :) I don't get that smell anymore since my doctor gave me a nasal spray but I had a blood test and waiting for results just in case it could be something else.

Thanks to Bablu and Lisa for commenting :D

Hoped everyone had a good year! :)

Been a little busy getting the coursework finished and feeling quite unwell at the moment. I got this smokey/gas smell in my nose everytime I breathe in which is really weird and my forehead feels funny. It's not a headache it's like a pressure feeling as if someone is pushing my head.
My doctor told me to have a blood test as she doesn't why I get the smokey smell. So I have to use this nasal spray for a month! :p oh well I just hope it isn't serious later on.

Only 3 weeks left till my cousin get's married in India and I still haven't got anything ready! I bet I will only sort stuff out a few days before departure :p.

Thanks to Bablu for commenting :)

This week has gone really quick, seriously! So I'll be making an small post because I'm going to my cousins in a bit to celebrate new year with the whole family :p.

I hoped everyone had a great Christmas! I had an really good Christmas with the whole family...it makes me really happy how much we all get along and finally after so long we played some board games - Absolute Balderdash and Cranium -> and they actually liked it for once :p....we did some karoake as well but I only did one song because I hate singing my voice is really that bad lol. But still I think we had one of the best Christmases in a very long time!

Anyways I hope everyone has a great time tonight and have someone/friends/family to celebrate with.

Happy New Year!

2006

Hope everyone has a good start of the new year and benefit good things all year round

Feeling a little better these days except for the cough! Christmas on Sunday and we haven't really prepared anything for it so far except for few little decorations.
But can't find the Christmas tree we had for so many years - it's one of those little 3 foot artificial trees :p. I don't think we have ever had a normal size tree that you tend to see in alot of people's houses.

Got some presents even though we are not suppose to give presents this year but what the hell it won't be Xmas without presents, right?

You know when you were younger and you played all these cool board games on Xmas, didn't it use so much fun? But as you get older you play them less and less until it feels like it's not Xmas anymore? It's like that for us, I bought the Cranium board game last Xmas but nobody played it, apparently it looked too hard! when in fact it's not.

The only 'fun' things we do on Christmas is play video games, DVD games like karaoke and watch TV mainly soap specials...it sounds pretty boring but obviously we always add an Asian flavour to Christmas and that's dancing to bhangra and singing hindi songs while everyone else except me get tipsy lol! (I don't drink).


Anyways I hope everyone has a nice weekend and and have a lovely Christmas atmosphere.

oOoO~ Merry Christmas ~OoOo

No I haven't stopped blogging =p...I really have been busy in this past week - all last week I was starting on my 1st proper coursework (which I was suppose to start 3 weeks ago!) and got it done just in time before the deadline of 12pm this Monday but I don't think I done well on it. I hadn't start IT file (which again I was suppose to start a long time ago lol) till this Tuesday and handed it in just before the deadline yesterday.

I'm really unwell as well. I was fine yesterday until later on when I had temperature, headache feeling sick etc but probably cos I couldn't sleep at all the other night...and the outcome out of this, is that I have flu!. So I feel a little dazy today and I'm speaking really funny lol. I'm glad it happened now rather than earlier on otherwise I would miss lectures and tutorials and probably wouldn't have got all my coursework done.

I can only blog this much because I feel a little funny now but today I can celebrate a little because it's start of my university vacation for the next 3 weeks since beginning of September yay!

I can't believe it's Christmas next Sunday all of a sudden...it doesn't feel very Christmasy (except for TV ads obviously) this year. Apparently this Christmas my aunty said where not giving presents this year but I bet ya there will be! - and everyone's coming for Christmas to our place but we haven't put any Christmas decorations yet. Use to be so fun when you were younger but sometimes you think Christmas as you get older as a day where it's only about presents and commercialism. But I always say it brings the whole family together especially for my family.

oh and my presentation went quite well I think :p I'm just not looking forward to next one as it's going to be an mock court trial and our teacher is going to choose what role we get!

Thanks to: Bablu and Santosh for commenting =D

Went to my cousin's house on Friday (the one who just recently got engaged to a girl in India) although we didn't do an suprise party as they came back from India on that day and they were still jet lagged lol. But we went out to a restaurant and it was pretty nice, like a family get together which is what we use to do when we were younger but as you get older it get's less and less.

Watched the engagement on the DVDs made from India although most of them don't work! but the engagement photo album expressed more words and emotions than the DVDs.......it's quite stange to me though as you'd think watching video in life like would express everything but still pictures give more meanings as you interpet it differently and interpet it in many possible ways.

I'm blogging this late because my computer is messed up again and had to restore everything and lost all my files!! argh!.........computer always messes up when you need it the most. Gonna get the computer fixed next week since we break up on 16th from university yay!

Not looking forward to Tuesday morning though because I got the presentation to do and I have the longest part - please help me! =p.

Thanks to Bablu for commenting!

It snowed finally on Monday! although as usual for the British weather it was only just sleet. I still remember when I was very young it use to snow so much that it would grow from about 9-10 inches. Oh well we know why it only sleets rather than snow....it's global warming but where still not doing much about it.

Yesterday we had to do a group presentation and since the last presentation I did was in September (when we introduced ourselves) I had to talk. I was nervous! I just hate speaking in front of people it makes me feel uncomfortable and then I start talking really fast and then can't seem to say some easy words and then start mumbling. It's so embarrassing!
We were the first group to present and I had to speak 1st. I was fine at first until I started muddling up the words! I went bright red lol. The other girl who was doing the presentation with me was so confident and spoked so well and calmly. Why can't I be like that? But then I'm not confident as I hope to be, I just have to learn to be confident otherwise there would be no point of doing Law if your not confident right.
I'm just glad that was over and done with but we have another presentation next week on Draft Bill and I have to talk again! but at least couple of others from my group are speaking too.

Anyways gotta get my research done (although I bet I won't do it tonight, so lazy I know!) cos my coursework needs to be done over a week's time.
I also have to go and help my mum to cook because I really need to learn how to make Indian food =p. Is it just me but do alot of Asian girls cook less Indian food than say about over 10 years ago? because most of the women in my family and relatives who are less than 40 cook less Indian food or don't even know how to cook Indian food!

p.s I stopped highlighted some words in colour cos it sometimes looks funny and as you can see I sorted most of this page out - deleted links, useless info and new urls -> go check them out!

Thanks to: Bablu for commenting!

8 months?!
it's been 8 months since I blogged on here! wow =p....that's a very long time. I have been online in the last 5 months and your probably wondering why haven't I blogged all this time.
Basically fow a while blogging and maintaining my other websites were like a chore and I became less interested in them. But I've finally got my interest back so hopefully I won't do another long haitus again =p.

The last 8 month's has passed by pretty quickly and I can't really remembered what I did in that time lol, so I'll write down the main events:

* did my A level exams in June and got my results in August and passed finally! My grades improved dramatically thankgod! I got C in Law, B in General Studies, D in Business and finally for my 4th attempt at GCSE Maths I got C. It was worthwhile 3 yrs at college to get this far.

* I started my 1st year of university life this September, so yay! For once I actually feel much more comfortable and relaxed with myself then I ever did before, so it's a good job I don't hate the uni life :p.
Oh I forgot to say I'm studying Law degree although I did change my mind before I started this course to do Criminology then Architecture. But just maybe I could do those courses in future, yes consider me as mad! I don't live in student accomodation though cos uni is nearby and it's much more cheaper.

* My dear cousin is getting married! so where going to India in February for his wedding, it's gonna be really good although the only problem for me is the flights, I'm scared of flying?!

* A couple of months ago my parent's shop got burgled! (we live upstairs) My parents went to Derby to stay for a night, me and my cousin (the one getting married next yr) were taking care of the shop.
We closed the shop I stayed upstairs, my cousin went out with his mates. About 2am while I was asleep (my cousin came back about 1am-ish) I heard both my dogs barking like mad for like 10 minutes, then I heard some kind of noise like a drilling going on. My cousin thought it was a motorbike and he looked out of the window and saw 2 guys face covered breaking into our shop. My cousin ran downstairs in the back by that time the robbers went away.
Police came told us not to go in the shop because need to take a crime scene evidence...but we opened the back door of the shop just to get a glimpse. They stole the ATM cash machine using a chainsaw!!!........I couldn't believe it! but for some reason I wasn't really shaken by what happened! However I'm glad my cousin didn't go downstairs any earlier when the burglars were there because you wouldn't know what could have happened if he saw them with the chainsaw.
So I'm very thankful nothing else happened although they never got caught. All we knew was that it was an organised crime because they robbed another 2 shops a week later for the ATM cash machines.

* In July I found out something about my life that my parents nor my family told me about which I never told any of my family nor my parents that I knew because I was feeling really angry, upset at that time but then I realised I'm glad this happened otherwise I wouldn't be the person that I am now. I've only told couple of my cousins and I was going to tell my aunty cos I knew she would understand but I haven't told her still because she's been having so many problems in her life and I didn't want add another burden on her. But I will eventually tell her. I will confront my parents eventually but it's just not the right time yet cos sometimes even I can't accept or believe about it.

* One of my cousins told me his big secret a couple of months ago (which is when I confessed about my secret to him) that he is gay which is what I never expected. Don't get me wrong I have absolutely nothing against gay people, I actually give my support to those who are gay. It's just that I never expected it you know in my own family but it just goes to show how narrowminded we can be sometimes but I'm very happy for him. I'm glad he told me, and he's told most of the cousins, sisters, aunty but not the older lot because us younger ones accept more than the older generation. But that's the only reason it's because where Indians. It's much more harder for the younger Asian generation because of our traditions and such and you know how the older ones or relatives act when we believe in something that is not traditional.

I think this is the thing I really dislike being an Asian because being open about some things that are not traditional is never really spoken about it nor accepted. I just hope gradually in time that these issues are accepted more easily.


...........I think that's all that has happened in the last 8 months, I can't remember lol. Sorry for the long blog. I gotta go help my mum in shop since it's Lotto day it gets really busy, I'll blog later.

This is the 2nd time I had to do this post again :/ something wrong with my blogger argh!!

Hi sorry again :p been so busy with college life and homelife, so sorry. Whoo! alot has been going on for me I can't hardly remember what's been happening in the last 2 weeks lol.

Like said before I got mum an bracelet and it broke so got her a newer and even nicer one than I got....still from the same jewellery shop anyways she likes it so that's a good thing! although I didn't get my mum an Mother's Day present because I had no clue what to get her and I still don't...bad!...so I'm still trying to find mum a nice gift.

Went to see my cousin who had a baby about 6 weeks ago and the little baby girl is adorable although I didn't hold her because I thought I might drop her as I'm a really clumsy person :p but I was really unwell on that day because I couldn't go to sleep the night before as I felt I was going to be sick.....I'm scared of being sick and I thought I was gonna but I never was sick! it's quite annoying though when that happens cos you just want to get it over with lol.

Went to a birthday party last week for my mum's uncle's grandson :p....it was cool since it was in my childhood area....although I know this isn't funny but I thought it was when the day after the party occured relatives starting calling everyone because alot of people had the diarrhea (not that you want to know :p) by eating the lamb (I don't like lamb and it was an indian style) that wasn't cooked probably.....so although it wasn't a funny problem it was funny that relatives kept calling each other to see who ate it and who's had it bad.

Got my exam results last week from the exams I sat in January and the grades are okay :/ ...it wan't what I expected as I thought I was starting to do really well this year as I did understand more and worked hard but then there's still exams coming up in June so probably I can up my grades....and for the university application so far I got 3 conditional offers (depends on my exams results in June), 1 rejection (a uni which I chose as my last choice anyway) and still waiting for 2 uni to respond which is really agonising as I want to get it all done and choose the two uni's I want to go to then do my exams so I know which uni I can go to. I know what my first choice is but for my 2nd choice uni I have absolutely no clue.

I have loads to write but as you know I can't be bothered lol :p
By the way there are new banners below the hotspots section, check them out thanks.

Thanks to these people for commenting =D : Jr, Bablu and Paul.

Busy again :p argh!!....I know I said I was going to blog about my events last week but can't be bothered lol feel too lazy.
My mum is now 56 already but to everyone else including me she look's only 40 but alot of older people are starting to look more younger while younger people are starting to look more older!
I got her an £80 gold/black bracelet from an local asian jeweller so basically it isn't an really good make because mum has been wearing it since yesterday and this morning it was broken :( so that was really crap and I thought I must have been stupid to get that gift :p.....so going to return the bracelet tomorrow and get an refund to spend it somewhere else and this time taking my mum to find the jewellery she wants...as now I need to get her a Mothers Day gift argh!.

I'll be going to my cousins later on tomorrow as where going to see my other cousin who had an baby on Sunday morning....I just hope we come back early though because I gotta do this and that on Sunday night - sunday night suppose to be an relaxing day but never is :p Hopefully tomorrow we might go out to cinema if any good film is on and probably go out for something to eat.
Gotta help my parents to close the shop now :p

Thanks to Khushee and Bablu for commenting =D

I'm blogging to say I'm still alive! lol :p ....it's been a very busy week again and as usual my Broadband connection went funny and my whole computer crashed down and frozed....good job I saved my files otherwise I'll be pulling my hair out and screaming and blame it on someone else as I had to reinstall the whole computer all over again :p..............
there's loads to blog but I don't have time to write it all down today so I'll try to blog the events tomorrow or Wednesday the lastest hopefully.........I can't believe Mother's Day is just around the corner on the 6th March!! it's too damn early and it's my mum's birthday as well this thursday and I have absolutely no clue what to buy her at all!.....cos usually I use to buy well dad use to buy :p gold Indian expensive jewellery but she doesn't want them anymore and I have no idea what she wants ......and I actually have to buy an 3rd present for mum anyway cos I didn't get anything for her birthday last year oops! I know I'm a bad daughter :p but I promise to buy my beautiful mum presents this year.

Anyone have any idea's what can I buy for my mum's birthday and Mother's Day since the events are this week?!
Gotta go and do stupid homework.

Thanks to: Bablu and for commenting :)

I haven't blogged in the last few days as I had the mock exams so had to decrease my time on here...thankgod it's weekend :p.
I think my cousin from Holland and his wife who have been living with us for nearly 2 years! (although they seem like strangers to me) will hopefully be going back to Holland for good in the beginning of March - crossing my fingers hoping it's for definite.
Probably going to town to shop with my cool hip aunt which I haven't done in a long time but I definitely know how to save my money in a way now :p.....and probably going to watch the Bollywood movie too Black - been really eager to watch since it's different and has no songs and this time only 2 hours :p. Oh and I think the director Sanjay Leela Bhansali who made the film is awesome (Devdas is still my favourite movie).
Gotta check my email and have breakfast as I've only just woken up now so I'm half asleep still lol.

Thanks to Khushee and Bablu for commenting :)

I hope everyone who are loved-up had an nice Valentine's Day yesterday :)

Back at college urgh! but it's okay. Though I've got two mock exams on Thursday and Friday. I gotta revise tonight - it's gonna be a really busy week.
It's really weird seeing people change. I've seen a few people who I use to be good friends with at school and promised we will keep in touch when we leave college. But that's hardly happened lol...I saw an friend the other day in town with her new friends and I said hi but she just smiled and walked off...I mean there's nothing wrong with that but we use to be really close friends and she never even spoken to me for like 2 minutes...But I guess people change as time changes and you have to move on...but the thing with me is that I like keep the old things with me just so I can remember the really good times when I was younger but it's kinda like I'm a time trap which I gotta learn to move on.

Is it me or is time flying really fast for these last couple of years? I dunno why but I just feel like I've only spent like 3 months in a year :p and it's already February in 2005 and I haven't exactly done anything really but then probably that's the reason why I feel my life is going way past me :p.

By the way I have new sites opened :) check them out if ya like: Sanjay Leela Bhansali, Veer Zaara OST, JLo Fan Team and Joan Of Arcadia clique


Thanks to Bablu and Khushee for commenting as always :p

I hope you like the new layout :) it features the famous Japanese singer Ayumi Hamasaki - it's only recently I've been in J-Pop music :p.
This weekend my broadband has been going on and off so everytime I tried to post the internet kept going off :(. So hopefully it won't happen now when I post here.

Couple of weeks ago I went to one of my cousin's engagement party and it was quite good although he never showed the pic of the girl that he's going to marry but I think in the next 3 months we will be going to the girl's side for the engagement party so I'll get to see her then :).
On that night when we when to my cousin's engagement party we went to my other cousin's house :p to see her baby girl she gave birth to recently. She had an casceraen (sp?) but the baby is so cute although I'm shy and nervous around babies and children lol :P so that's why I hope no one passes their baby and children to tell me to hold them or take care of them because I just won't know what to do lol :p.

Going back to college tomorrow...urgh!! and urgh!!...I just don't look forward to college this year but it's only couples of months left and I'm counting my next term already for the Easter holidays :p.....I gotta do the homework cos I still haven't done it and it's in tomorrow eek! and then I got essay to do for tuesday!...so gotta get busy busy.


Thanks to: Khushee for commenting :)

Again sorry for my long hiatus from my blog :( ...my stupid broadband connection keeps messing up - everytime I went on the computer for the last couple of weeks my username and password kept changing which was really weird but I think this is happening cos the cash machine, phone, lottery and credit machine are on the same phone line downstair in the shop....so basically my internet is going to keep on messing up forever :/ argh!

I've missed so much online I need to get back into my old usual habit of checking others blogs out and JLo news and stuff :p.....actually it was good timing that my internet hasn't been working for the last couple of weeks because my health and wellbeing has well and truly taken it's toll over me...I've never been so burnt out before - I use to sleep like 2ish am and wake up like 7am for college then weekends sleep even later and wake up at 11/12ish in the morning :p so yeah my sleeping pattern was really messed up it was gonna take it's toll sooner or later....I mean doing that for a long period of years has kinda messed up my concentration as nearly every single lesson for the last 4 weeks I actually started falling asleep in them seriously :p but I am kinda getting into habit by going to sleep early like 12.45ish am at the mo' (not alot but I'm trying to cut down my waking hours slowly :p)

Same with what I'm eating and drinking has finally tooken it's toll on my health...I never liked drinking water so I always drank Lucozade and nothing else...so yeah never just drink fizzy drinks all the time because you get really unwell and have stomach problems with all that acid messing your system...but yeah I haven't touched Lucozade or any fizzy drink for a while and instead of drinking water which I hate I now drink diluted drink with water - it really does work it's made me feel so much better and less unwell.
I always use to eat the bad stuff meaning everything that was convenient to make in the microwave because it was easier and lazier :p but it kept making me feel sluggish all the time but I'm now actually wait for it..... :p.....trying to learn cook for once :p so I'm trying to eat the good stuff and eating more vegetables and fruit....I'm pretty happy with myself with these changes because it really affected me badly by being depressed and that but I am feeling much more better about myself now so hopefully I will continue like this cos I don't really wanna go back to my old habits.

I know this post sounds like how to eat healthy and keep a good wellbeing as such :p but it makes me feel better and hopefully everyone keeps a good wellbeing of themselves because taking bad care of oneself will take it's toll sooner or later....I think I mainly did this because I might have to move away from home if the university I want to go to is faraway and all these stories you hear about uni students drinking beer basically every night and eating mostly bad food so I had to get my act up :p and learn cooking because my mum won't be there to make anything, washing clothes etc
....eek! so scary thinking about all these massive changes that is gonna happen when I leave college but suppose it's a good thing to get away and try to be more of an adult who can take care of herself well...Other thing that I gotta tackle though is learn how to drive!! which I still haven't applied an license for :P but I really gotta though otherwise probably my dad will still have to drive me around porbably when I get into my 30's lol :p.

I got loads to blog still but there's too much already I done so far so I probably blog tomorrow....it's half term at the moment from college but going back to college on Monday :( and got a mock test for Business Studies which I haven't revised for yet :/.....gotta do 3 homeworks which I still haven't done, updates the sites and visit blogs/messageboards to check out so got a lot to do :p

.................oh and I forgot to say I got 2 offers so far from 2 universities :D although they are "conditional" offers which means it will depend on my exams in June :( but at least I did get offers I thought I won't get any.....still waiting for other 4 unis to respond back to me to see if I'm accepted or rejected...argh!!! I really hate all these waiting.


Thanks to: Bablu and Khushee for commenting :D
p.s. I'm gonna change layout out soon